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it's me โ€“ es!! i'm es. ๐ŸงŠ 30s/f/sweden, interested in math, programming, art, โ€ฆ

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yeah that's absolutely true, i basically believed "being trans = trapped in the wrong body" and "adhd = bouncing off the walls like a cartoon rabbit" until i went on twitter in like 2017 and saw actual trans/adhd ppl talk about it

08.08.2025 02:34 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 0    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

maybe i am just particularly stupid though ๐Ÿ˜Œ

08.08.2025 00:19 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

it's like honestly wild how like, zoomers grow up mentally at a much younger age than millennials. my level of introspection was like, at 17 i was *open* to the idea of being broadly lgbtq lol. definitely wouldn't blame myself for not having figured out my gender as a 14-year old lol

08.08.2025 00:18 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

if anybody wants to take me in and let me stay with them for another international trip, when i arrive you may pet me atop the head and in return i will lick your hand much like a dog would. this is my poster's promise.

04.08.2025 16:41 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 15    ๐Ÿ” 1    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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ๅคขใฏใ„ใคใงใ‚‚ ใ‚ใŸใ—ใฎๅ‘ณๆ–น

04.08.2025 09:02 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 17    ๐Ÿ” 6    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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14ๅทป็™บๅฃฒใ€‚ๅพ…ใก้ ใ—ใ™ใŽใŸใใ™ #ใƒกใ‚คใƒ‰ใ‚คใƒณใ‚ขใƒ“ใ‚น

07.08.2025 21:54 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 32    ๐Ÿ” 11    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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20250807 #908kira_comic

07.08.2025 13:49 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 36    ๐Ÿ” 12    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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โ€ฆ๏ผŸ๏ผŸ

07.08.2025 22:22 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 40    ๐Ÿ” 8    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

every trans girl knows how to do a "key bump", the only question is if it's in reference to lockpicking or cocaine

07.08.2025 17:40 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 8    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
me: like she looks hopeless and resigned from the way she's standingโ€ฆ ghhh it's so fucking brilliant it's so good. the last time i can remember an anime/manga making me feel like this was in the 1st ep of panty & stocking when "fly away now" starts playing during the transformation sequence. and i was so ecstatic about it that one of the other ppl in the forum thread was just like "yeah alright man calm down" lol
friend: Omg XD cute

me: like she looks hopeless and resigned from the way she's standingโ€ฆ ghhh it's so fucking brilliant it's so good. the last time i can remember an anime/manga making me feel like this was in the 1st ep of panty & stocking when "fly away now" starts playing during the transformation sequence. and i was so ecstatic about it that one of the other ppl in the forum thread was just like "yeah alright man calm down" lol friend: Omg XD cute

to be clear this already happened a couple days ago when i was talking to a friend about the manga "love bullet" lol

07.08.2025 17:17 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 2    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

hmmโ€ฆ whenever i open up about being easily excitable, girls keep calling me cute. i should do that more.

07.08.2025 04:12 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

the truth come out

07.08.2025 00:08 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 3    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

i think you might be misinterpreting, i was talking about me when i was around friends/acquaintances in SF and trying to hide my excitement about things they found completely mundane lol. i don't really know what introspection you're referring to, i've mostly just been beating myself up over it

07.08.2025 00:07 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

you should set a good example and switch to an anime girl yourself ๐Ÿ˜ค

07.08.2025 00:01 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 5    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

the es experience is getting "oo yay yippee!!" levels of excited about something mundane while also being extremely worried that you're showing it too openly and your friends will sneer at you and go "ugh what the fuck is your problem" even though it would be insane of them to do that. and you're 33

06.08.2025 23:49 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 9    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 3    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

feel like i'm telling on myself a little with how i still feel/act like a temporarily embarrassed cosmopolitan a full week after returning back home lol. can you tell it made an impression on me? that i've been a bit starved of socialization? that i have the inner life of a border collie?? 33 btw

06.08.2025 23:40 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 11    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Remilia
#ๆฑๆ–นProject

06.08.2025 18:31 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 107    ๐Ÿ” 34    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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summer dog ๐Ÿ•โ˜€๏ธ๐Ÿฆ

06.08.2025 15:14 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 6284    ๐Ÿ” 974    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 42    ๐Ÿ“Œ 12

need girl (who lets me crash on her sofa for a week)

06.08.2025 18:58 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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Braided girl

06.08.2025 14:05 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 533    ๐Ÿ” 128    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 4    ๐Ÿ“Œ 1
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dude, your soda and your boots rock

05.08.2025 12:41 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 4064    ๐Ÿ” 1270    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 35    ๐Ÿ“Œ 10
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ๆ˜”ใฎๅค‰ใˆใŸใ ใ‘

06.08.2025 17:23 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 185    ๐Ÿ” 28    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
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wading

06.08.2025 18:33 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 427    ๐Ÿ” 105    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

my bitch ex-polycule took everything in the quadrivorce

06.08.2025 15:05 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 18    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

you'll be amazed by how much you can accomplish in life when you don't stop for a moment to feel deeply ashamed of yourself

13.10.2024 23:47 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 289    ๐Ÿ” 59    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 7    ๐Ÿ“Œ 2

basically my brain will see a situation with unfamiliar or unknown risks and immediately assume mortal danger. it's like a worse version of synaesthesia and it's my biggest achilles heel

06.08.2025 08:52 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 6    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 0    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

honestly even on days with good mental health i am at a complete loss for what to actually do to improve my life. like. i know it's my own fault bc i will twist myself in knots instead of ever confronting my fears head-on, but still. aghh

06.08.2025 08:36 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 10    ๐Ÿ” 0    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 1    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0
ink drawings of two woman on a part of a sketchbook page
One has a curly blonde bobcut, an oversized jacket and a crop top underneath 
The other has long curly dark hair covering her eyes, wears a tank top, and her jean jacket is loose, showing her shoulders

ink drawings of two woman on a part of a sketchbook page One has a curly blonde bobcut, an oversized jacket and a crop top underneath The other has long curly dark hair covering her eyes, wears a tank top, and her jean jacket is loose, showing her shoulders

tiny vacation inks

05.08.2025 09:32 โ€” ๐Ÿ‘ 1834    ๐Ÿ” 254    ๐Ÿ’ฌ 10    ๐Ÿ“Œ 0

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