Aero's Quiet Corner

theres no space for me left

This is my cry for help, this is my immature shout onto social media, this is my declaration that im not okay. Because im not, im so fucking tired of waking up wishing i just wasnt here. Im so tired of thinking that no one would notice if i was gone, i just wish i felt that i did have a place here

Time and time again ive been told well make your own server make your own place for people like you and god is it so hard to do that when i cant even maintain friendships or find others who actually are like me. Its just so tiring

I feel like no matter what i do whether be myself or try to be the person others want me to be I can never fulfill the role that i should be. In such a tight knit and active community i truly feel alone, even in my own server.

I try and try and try to feel close to others or interact and i feel constantly reminded that I’m just not appealing, i dont like the same games or media or yuri/yaoi or fanfiction or even kink tastes others do, time and time again ive been made fun of for my game tastes or my sports team

I feel like whenever i stopped presenting as a full women she her and everything most people and close friends lost interest in me. It feels like im just some agender freakshow that doesnt provide anything anymore. I dont fit in anyone’s circles, im not desirable anymore, im just useless

Im going to be completely honest I just truly don’t think I have a space in this community and these circles. I feel genuinely undesirable and worthless to most, not even my art is bringing in people to chat with. This loneliness is eating away at me, its making me feel sick when im awake

I need to shout into the void, i need to get these thoughts out before they eat me alive

These posts are gonna be alot, if anyone does read em, fair warning

I wish it was easier for me to actively just, live. I can't even consistently keep myself online or working. from having to deal with death threats multiple times online, to even now being threatened irl, to general fatigue of these spaces, and the struggle to just, talk and exist, i cant keep up.

I just want to live, man

Im scared of people i call friends and i dont know what to do

I do not belong in these spaces.

Im not going to speak on the topic at hand, and im gonna post on here for a lil because man i just graduated it is not worth having friends being mad at me and the tl being aggressive the second i finally have free time. I want to yknow, not be yelled at and have a good night

I don't know what to do anymore

I just dont know what to do

I don't know how to exist rn, I struggle keeping up online and being an artist and i guess thats to be expected since im in the biggest shift in my life rn. I don't know how to be an kink artist anymore, I struggle to feel present or capable

Once again, I do not feel like I belong anywhere

I wonder if people actually do like me

im fuckin done today was shit, it ended shit, get stuck with dealing with bullshit all day, fucking yipee im sick of everything and everyone I don't wanna fucking be verbal anymore or deal with anything

I’m getting so sick of this community.

Miserable start to spring break, great

I need to be 200 pounds heavier

im not and never will be a free art machine, fucking sick of some people

So tired of being a friendship I care too much about being a love-hate situation

im so burnt out on kink stuff, fuck

Reinstalling masters just for this

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Im so sick of feeling so, disconnected from everyone around me
Everyones game tastes are different than mine and every time I try to get into things i just end up not liking it but when i mention what i like i get told it sucks and it just blows i dont feel like i fit in at all

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