JBean

Officially hit 44 books and working on my 45th~ had my first genuine 1 star audiobook in a bit too and boy was it rough.

Sorry also for being gone for a while. My father passed away in September then I saw Sleep Token and had a weekend of volunteering at a local gaming expo. So it’s been a busy month.

Definitively not using Goodreads after they allowed the author to delete my review & blocked reviews on The Age of Scorpius AGAIN. So yes- this will be the last year I use it.
To follow my reviews, find me on Storygraphs. It’s so frustrating.

Making a microwave chow mein with 45 min on the clock at work because hungry + working = distracted

I tend to find myself describing what I want out loud when trying to say exactly what.
Unfortunately “the thing over there” does not translate in my husbands mind to “my switch controller”.

My mind is such a wasteland lately of stress. It feels like it’s killing me.
I’m back on my weight medication- week three is this week.
Causing me to maybe lose some weight is great- dealing with dehydration in this heat if I forget my water is horrid.
Hecate protect me 😭

Pretty cat.
Also- will need to acquire a physical copy at some point- I loved these 😭🩵

We have natural clover in over half our yard and get rabbits every year that come to munch :3

I’ve missed you all!
Been dealing with a lot of family health scares and concerns.
My dad is overall not doing well.
I’ve been there for most of my family passing away- the time is coming.
I’m not doing well mentally either as a result.
I hope you’re having a great summer!
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Book quote from kindle app reading: THE SORT OF RAGE THAT IS ONLY SEEN WHEN RICH FOLK THAT HAVE MORE THAN THEY CAN ENJOY SUDDENLY LOSE SOMETHING THAT THEY HAVE LONG HAD BUT HAVE NEVER BEFORE USED OR WANTED. J.R.R. Tolkien The Hobbit: 75th Anniversary Edition #kindlequotes

So tired lately. Went to the doctors today, I’ve gained a ton of weight and I just feel like I’m sinking into myself.
We’re under heat warnings yet getting “violations” by our park for not power washing the house.
It’s been raining nearly daily and when it isn’t it’s 90-100 degrees…
I’m so tired…

Anywhere here’s my new tattoos. I’m just stressed and tired.

My my it’s been 10 days!
I’ve been very overwhelmed lately and after treating myself to two tattoos for Friday the 13th, it turns out we may have had a gas leak in our home.
Turned out thankfully no- just a dry tank issue with our spare shower.
But my cats were very stressed and so was I.

My switch 2 is in the mail but I can’t be happy because I’m STILL SICK after over NINE DAYS.

I feel like if I won that much my spending problems would explode (after paying off debts) and it would be gone in maybe 3 years.

And happy pride month!!
Don’t let anyone take away your identity just because they’re too afraid to accept their own.
Love you all 🩵

Hi I’ve been sick for a week straight and have been mentally in a bad space as a result but thankfully I have sick time because permanent employee now and also my managers are amazing and I’m hoping I feel well to work tomorrow but if not Tuesday is assured. Also switch 2 this week!!

A common place to meet others who love reading. Basic understanding of etiquette in the space is nice too. Usually quiet, has extra activities throughout the month for adults and kids. A creative space.

New job has been going great so far.
Still making mistakes but that’s ok! It’s really complicated work.
I hope this works out for me- I feel like I’m retaining a lot - still 5-7 weeks of training to go.
Funny how I ended up in finance when I never thought I’d like it / qualify.

I… just got access to TikTok live? Holy cow? Why tho? Anyways, unsure how to use this power?

My official final day as an intern- they bought pizza supposedly not due to me getting a new job but I get the feeling that’s why.
It was a truly kind gesture.
Finished Severance by Ling Ma. Initially gave 5 stars on GR because when you finish a book it immediately asks, might change to 4.
Solid.

Depending on how it impacts me, I might go right into another one same day!

Sadly my dad has done this to my half brother (his son). The answer? Bitterness, resentment, obsession, possessiveness, foolishness. They want attention and probably don’t care how they get it or how it looks. I’m sorry you’re both going through this.

Woooooah Severance by Ling Ma is wild with the context that it released BEFORE COVID… loving it so far- 10% through.
Also, Mapping the Interior ultimately got 3/5 for me.
Enjoyable in the moment but mostly forgettable over time.
Maybe a good book for a swap with a friend?
Hmm..

Also brought Severance by Ling Ma with me. I knew I’d rip through Mapping the Interior pretty quickly. Maybe I’m so thrown off by it rating wise because they insist on calling Native Americans “Indians” the whole time? This book was written in 2017, not 1945. I dunno, I’ll have to think it over.

Finished Mapping the Interior by Stephen Jones
It’s definitely a creepy tale, unsure exactly how to feel about it.
Being so short, 96 pages, it feels more like reading a Ghost Story than anything.
Glad it was a $5 cafe book though- wouldn’t have dropped $14 on it.
Not sure on a rating yet. 3/5?

Just finished Sunrise on the Reaping. Nearly screamed in my car, came back inside, can’t even cry. Have an idea of taking a two book break before finishing my May TBR- break being Severance by Ling Ma and Mapping the Interior by Stephen Jones

I finished Sunrise on the Reaping over 20 minutes ago and outside of writing my review I’ve sat numb on my bed wanting nothing more than to curl into a ball and cry - but the tears refuse to come. I’m so angry over something done to a fictional child when worse are done to actual kids RIGHT now.

I am now 40% into Sunrise on the Reaping and I’m having an unhealthy urge to reread the og trilogy rather than finish my May TBR. Ultimately it would put me +1 overall books if I do, but idk…
I have some room for Soul of a Witch still if I do, but Shōgun is so long 😭 maybe I need to be in the mood?