Charlie 🌻 🌻

Many times I’ve told myself “I’ll never loose that feeling of gratitude again”.

But know I just enjoy the cyclical, gaining and losing of perspective.

Remembered my job - which I’d spent the day resentful of - was something I’d aspired to, something I’d hoped I might be able to work my entire career for. Yet here it is

Encounter that art of being human so frequently. Finding gratitude, & the small beauty; and then loosing it all again. On repeat.

Mine is either:

• I have a side hobbie in self development, mindfulness, meditation etc

• For a long time travel was my main adventure, and then I got into adventures of the self

(But the challenge is conveying the depth of my interest - ie not just I use headspace 10 mins a day).

Curious what phrases others use to introduce their tpot existence to others in a normie setting?

Any successes - either in legibility or in dinner party entertainingness?

I think I also can fall into the overdoing trap of “I’m going to intensely down regulate now”!

Relate? Or any thoughts welcome?

I have this strange loop, where anything I do explicitly to “calm”/“down regulate” reinforces my identity of being stressed in that moment.

As such, find resistance to “down regulaty things” that I know would be used of to me.

Heyyy!!!! I’ll DM you! Honestly so much life has happened to me, it’s hard to sum it all up!

Yes entirely, surely there must be a study… poasts x happiness?

Have cool stuff to say, but dear god, saying it strikes the fear of god into me

In a very different note, would love a brand consultant if anyone enjoys sn and wants to help me think about who I should be on them legible platforms

Almost certainly why I don’t really like the intention of Instagram, and find posting such tediously hard work.

I’ll confess, I spend most of my time scrolling Instagram on people who’s lives seem more perfect than mine. Judging if their life is actually more perfect than mine, and wondering if they are actually happy.

Miss it ♥️

Yes for sure! Almost the need for a structured set of outcomes, from walking an unusual path!

Fink my greatest strength is enjoying figuring out the whole big mess of things, envisaging projects that fit and setting them up for the direction they could take….

Now just to figure out a lifetime of slices of that in work and play that let me lean into that

How come none of it has been rainbows?

Society shapes expectations, even in the way you take time off from its expectations I guess!

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… and the rut that followed it straight after.

Definitely something seductive about self-developing in a narratively compelling way.

I found when I took 4 months off. I wanted to have the right story to tell, and a heroic unwavering transformation to show for it.

Much happier with my patchwork of lessons, resonant experiences…

Awww this is beautiful!

Damn is it nice to see so many familiar faces though!

Been away from tpot for a while, so don’t know what you guys have been rambling on while I’ve been away 😥

Have we spoken about how both the self help, and spiritual industrial-complexes, trap creators into selling a “figured-it-all-out-ed” version of themselves?

Which ultimately constrains them?

And how am I going to be able to argue with you on that? All the sensations ☺️

Pretty huh?! Eat my first yak, Tibetan yak tea, and ate a lot of mushroom hotpot. 😋

In which precise way fun?

Spent a beautiful weekend in Tibet-adjacent Yunnan. What have you been up to?

I find myself treading the very legible, “normie” path, and I much less legible one at the same time. A tpot outlier?!

I’ll confess, it’s been tiring of late. With my latest big context switch, feeling like the hardest to navigate with the two sides of me.