just a bee

Its crazy because no matter what the topic i will never lose interest in making them teach me things about their interests

Its a little hard to be the happiest you've ever been and feel like you're in a situation you want to spend the rest of your life in yet still be constantly terrified of abandonment

Lol why am I such a giant piece of shit

I'm not trying to be emotionally unavailable I'm just in love with someone who can't reciprocate and can't seem to be capable of feeling joy without being reminded of them

Chat i think I fumbled the ball again

Oof yk, what's rough? The harder I try to expand my horizons and rely on people for sexual and emotional intimacy, the stronger my affection is for the person I'm expanding from. Boundaries are hard. I'm a good noodle. Sigh.

All the things I do to try and break away and find me and what I want just makes me wish you wanted me more. Whatever mental illness refuses to let me build a bridge needs to lay off

Guys I think I've been lied to all these years. I think sex with other people might be overrated.

The I'm joining the war on autism meme with Dale Cooper from Twin Peaks giving a thumbs up

Wanting to perish after an emotional hurdle is quite annoying

Donald Trump just humiliated the country in front of the entire world with an hour-long rant that was insane and jumbled even by his standards.

The right is gonna hyperfocus on the fact that Robin Westman was a trans woman, but completely ignore that they were also a deranged nazi and racist. #minneapolis

No one talks to me anymore and idk what I did. Did I get a little too suicidal? A little too talkative? A bit too loud? I miss feeling wanted.

I've been hanging out with other people lately, and it just...isnt the same. It feels wrong. It doesn't flow correctly. It makes me feel dirty and like part of myself is missing. I don't like it.

I miss them

My partner finally dumped me... it was a long time coming. I asked them for kindness they couldn't give, and I'm too emotionally unstable to love. It's honestly super understandable. I'm just tired.

I tried to take my own life, and then, a few days later, I got the most exciting news of my life. Please find help if you need it. I'm so grateful for every single person who gave me any of their time in my time of need. #uplifting #hopesky #positive

Kill the fascist within you.

Man, I really like boundaries and communication. I got to bond with my baby sister and have a really good time, and she got to be silly for her friends and still feel safe because we talked about it. I'm so proud. Ugh I love talking yall. Time space the universe. Fuck yeah.

I think i just want it to be over. I'm so sorry.

I want to be worth effort...

Simple commitments are too much. I'm not worth it. I get it. But can we try to commit to being a fuck sooner so it doesn't hurt as much?

We had years' worth of plans together. I'm tired of broken promises. Like if you're going to hurt me emotionally, just please commit to stalking and murdering me. I don't want to deal with this shit anymore

Maybe i want this? Maybe this is my fault?

Being mentally disabled fucking sucks. My brain is on fire.

I think the only person that ever truely unapologetically unconditionally loved me has been dead for a long time

This is all rhetorical btw idk why you people follow me

Do you think taking a potato peeler to my skin would make the physical pain caused by the emotional pain to stop?

If I do something to myself and people find this please dont me mad at me. I promise I did my best... the anger isn't good for your health.