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Which is to say I got some rather concerning news yesterday and today has been peachy keen

I hate that I know who Nagito is because I realized most of my life I had the same sort of karmic thought process my whole life. Bad thing happens well good thing is coming. Good thing happens uh oh bad thing is coming soon

Acid reflux?

Years of running and it’s this year I got an inhaler for helping me breath better. i kind of hate that was the trick to helping me not get tired immediately ten seconds into a sprint

Thrive

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Ok back to my jar of nutella

Again, they don’t realize what this actually feels and looks like not from their perspectives, and their lack of understanding is what is frustrating. it doesn’t matter how many theory books you read when there’s a goddamn person in front of you saying this live and in the moment

This is me being bitter at trying to tell coworkers what they *could* do to be mindful of n8v issues, get told that said coworkers(none of whom are native)know better than me, and then they turn around because we should tout the one native in our office for the public events to seem inclusive

I’m mostly going off my experience working in higher ed, but most stuff is still surface level at times, which again isn’t a lot but is something. so with current pushes to not do those things has come up it’s not hard to remove them

I will say, intrusive native thoughts for indig ppl day, I don’t think inclusive places have really moved at all as far as trying to make efforts. and I feels that’s more obvious now with certain roll backs

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JK Rowling pledges to keep up fight against SNP trans policies Author vows to bankroll campaigners after Scottish government fails to pay group's legal fees in Supreme Court equality case

It cannot be made clearer.

If you continue to support the Harry Potter franchise in any way, you are directly funding the removal of trans people's human rights in the UK.

I think I’m finally back to a decent percent of energy again. Crashing sucks

The good news is that it helps the spasms immensely

Every time I take a muscle relaxer for spasms I take a look at that tiny thing and go this thing ain’t ahit and immediately regret it after sleeping for twelve hours

Forced to stay up and work on stuff because tummy hurts but also it’s too dang hot to eep

Taking a week off from work was the best idea. Even if I got my energy back yesterday, it feels good

I cute my bangs

Dam been writing a book about this and she just TikToked it in 90 seconds.

I DO NOT "promote my fics so more people see it" I DO NOT "write famous tropes to get a wider audience" I DO NOT "choose a pairing that has lots of traffic" I POST INCREDIBLY SPECIFIC FANFICTION MADE EXCLUSIVELY FOR MY OWN TASTE AND IF IT DOESNT GET KUDOS I KILL MYSELF

Also I think I’ve never really had the chance to process the trauma I’ve had during the last two months alone. I think being able to cry without being like “gotta get it together the meeting is in five minutes” is cathartic

It doesn’t help that I’ve been hearing around the office of everyone encouraging each other of “we need to be more mindful of our workloads 🥺” despite the higher ups not reflecting that in the actual work loads And not really reassuring anyone that the work matters in a tangible way

I think it’s just the mentality of “you are allowed to take a break and say no to too much” is such a hurdle to cross when you’ve been raised to take on more for less

The fact that I’ve been running running running with work for like months on end and it’s now that my body is crashing is not surprising. I will be taking a full week off from my day job to just sleep and honestly just this one night has made me feel better

Little did Bakura know that was in fact a counterfeit. A lafufu