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YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Piano Journal 02-17-2026

Piano Journal 02-17-2026 🎵

Just recorded this, because not writing music is driving me insane. I've been playing the piano a bunch, though. So I recorded a session of improvised "thoughts" in music.

#piano #music

youtu.be/VeSqHiuGovg

I started up FFXIV again maybe around a month ago. Did the 4-day free return period and decided to keep at it. Glad I did. I'm advancing the story, leveling crafting jobs, and raising my allied society reputations in endwalker/dawntrail areas.

My gf decided to start playing which is why I returned

I can't break out of this bad vibe I have. I haven't been able to write music. I barely open the program to try.

But I also feel like I can write something if I really pushed myself, which is something I usually don't have to do to write music.

I know people would say don't force it, though.

Of course, if I manage to write something new, or do what I said I was going to do and remake existing songs to sound better, I'll let you know. I was thinking of using the community tag plus an alphadeus-specific tag that people who don't want to see my music can mute. something like #alphadeism

I haven't shared any music in a while. Unless YouTube doesn't count embedded views, the music seems to mostly go unheard (maybe 1-2 people at the most, probably but I don't see it in the stats). So I don't know if I want to share anything. Maybe will just link to YT direct or Bandcamp. We'll see.

My depression is getting really bad lately. It doesn’t seem to be because of any particular issue. Just this overwhelming sense of sadness and hopelessness. Gotta be the chemicals in my brain or something.

I’m having trouble doing stuff because of it.

I was able to guess (hopefully) the right name. In Season is still one of my favorite songs because of how different it sounds from anything else I had written at the time. It's good to see you.

I'm glad to hear. I feel the music I wrote for Dtoiders is some of the best music I've written.

I do apologize, though. I don't recognize your username :/ Was it different in the past?

I wonder if I’ve written all the music i could write. I mean almost 1200 songs. More than anyone should have to write. No major hits. Hardly even a ripple in the water.

While I’m not giving up, it is something to think about.

Thursday is the 26 year anniversary for me and my girlfriend.

Hope everyone is doing alright.

So as it turns out, I probably could've soloed this one level 90 optional dungeon that kept me from doing a certain allied society quest line in FFXIV months ago with my Warrior.

Because I soloed it easily last night. I then took on a bunch of other stuff in my journal to clear them.

This is what my FFXIV character currently looks like (Machinist). I can't believe there's a body piece with a set of headphones around the neck. Really speaks to me :p

I have level 100 Machinist, Bard, Warrior, Gunbreaker, Dragoon, Sage, Red Mage, and recently Pictomancer. Fun time

#blutoid #ffxiv

I'm annoyed that I didn't write any music in January. Not discouraged, just annoyed.

I barely opened the music program at all.

I did, however, play lots of piano because it's therapeutic.

Making progress on my quest log in FFXIV.

A little bit of Alphadeus trivia.

For the album "CHIPS VIII", I wrote one song for each letter of the alphabet. This wasn't my plan at first. I wrote the first three songs A B C unintentionally, and when I noticed, I decided to try for the rest of the alphabet.

Probably mentioned it already :P

FFVII Rebirth music is up on streaming services. Lovely music for a lovely game. Hope everyone is doing well.

#blutoid

Got the damn pickaxe :p

For the golden pickaxe, i had to mine:

20 times in level 1-10 nodes
300 in 11-20
1,000 in 21-30
2,000 in 31-40
4,000 in 41-50

Times, not items. And i had to do it for all three nations.

If it wasn’t obvious, i enjoy gathering :p

I did it for botanist, too x_x

Getting the hyperpickaxe in FFXIV is gonna drive me insane :p I’m on the final step though.

Reminds me of the grind for the golden pickaxe achievement item in a realm reborn, except this time i have to pay attention because of the mining requirements.

Almost there.

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - A Well-Known Stranger - 03 - Forgive Oneself (2012)

Forgive Oneself 🎵

From the 2012 album "A Well-Known Stranger". Very dramatic mostly piano piece.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=20UL...

-1 degrees F currently. Gonna be-5 or so later. 💀

This might be the first time I’ve seen minus weather. Probably

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Zeta (2011)

Zeta 🎵

From my 2011 album "From Alpha to Omega". It's a weird drum and bass track I guess? The tempo changes a few times though, so it might just be electronic music. Kinda crazy song.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=oFrN...

Got the (I think) second stage of the first purple cosmic tool for miner in FFXIV. Quite a bit of work to get the next stage. I like the new gathering/crafting zone, although I have to mute that music lol.

If for some reason, I don't write any more music, I'm happy leaving behind my "Legacy" (Albums 2011-2025). I'm not planning on stopping, just wanted it to be clear that I'm really proud of what I've accomplished.

Writing new music is proving to be difficult, trying to change my workflow and all.

FFXIV is going well. My girlfriend started playing :) I've been focusing on allied society quests (dawntrail), daily regular hunts for seals/nuts, and cosmic exploration which seems cool and I'm looking forward to the next area.

I guess I'm also working on a phantom weapon? Only 2 demiatma in.

Epsilon has a very "flying through space without a care" feeling to it. I like it so much. The goal of the song was to write as many chord changes to the repeating part as possible, and it made for a really solid piece of music.

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Epsilon (2011)

Epsilon 🎵

One of my favorite songs from my 2011 album From Alpha to Omega. This was my 2nd album, and the whole point of the album was to have fun and do different "mostly dance" stuff. This song feels like it has a very positive energy.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=cB0P...

I visited Zalera for a brief time earlier. It's neat being able to visit other worlds on other data centers. Not sure if we can be "friends" between data centers though. We'd have to coordinate either here or if you're on discord.

I don't think I have the patience for market manipulating lol

I’m not sure how communication works between data centers. I think i can visit and we can group up but i don’t know how to chat.

I have a few level 100s, and i make money through retainer ventures mostly.

Yeah. She needs to update the game i think but she wants to play

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Forgotten (2019)

Forgotten 🎵

From the 2019 album Madness. This song is more "experiment" than song. It plays the same section a few times, but each time, notes are taken away, and a noise takes over. Meant to express the feeling of forgetting someone.

www.youtube.com/watch?v=SpuV...