Alphadeus

I feel like maybe I should stop drinking. While I only drink 1 bottle a month (usually lasting a few days), it just makes me sleepy, and I wake up feeling stupid as hell.

I also end up sleeping most of the day. Doesn't seem worth it. I'll save this last bit of honey bourbon for November 9th.

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Eye of the Beholder (2014)

Eye of the Beholder 🎵

I consider this a boss battle song. I wrote it in 2014 for the album Ad Lib Vol 1 Part 2.

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a group of stuffed animals are walking on the ground . ALT: a group of stuffed animals are walking on the ground .

Happy Bidoof Day!

I lived in Central NJ at the time, pretty close to NYC (around 25 miles?). I think a day or two later, I smelled what I describe as "burning death", probably from the event.

YouTube video by Sean Bialo - Topic Fun House Fiasco

Musictoid: Donut Dodo OST - Fun House Fiasco

I'm addicted to this album (links to a playlist). By Sean "CosmicGem" Bialo. Really awesome chiptunes.

#blutoid

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congrats on the new job :)

I can't imagine 2 months. I was alone for about a week in 2001 (GF and her family went to a family reunion far away). Everything was fine, except towards the end, 9/11 happened 💀and then a day later, a power line across the street hit the ground causing sparks...

I probably should’ve specified lol. It’s my honey bourbon. If that was pee, I’d be worried about my hydration level hehe

Yeah. I didn’t want to give the brand away and make it seem like an endorsement :p

Picture of alcohol with an “i voted” sticker on it.

Current mood:

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - One To Be Feared (2016) [Soundtrack]

One To Be Feared 🎵

Happy Halloween :) Sharing something I wrote back in 2016 for the holiday. Got some spooky elements to it. Probably not my best horror song, but hey :p

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Checked my emails, looks like July of 2011.

I remember I started the first Dtoid Community Album in 2011. So it'll be 15 years of entertaining the community :) Not sure which month I started though. Need to do some research lol

I’m seriously considering the “Gems” idea for next year, where i remake songs to hopefully sound better.

I guess i might write new music too when the mood is right :p

With almost 1,200 songs i got enough for so many best of albums lol

I probably mentioned it at some point (or multiple times...), but it's wild to me that I've been writing music for almost 30 years. That's a hell of a long time :P

What's it like inside your head?

Mine? If I'm being honest...

#blutoid

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Theta (2011)

Theta 🎵

Written in 2011 for the album "From Alpha to Omega". It was written based on the piano riff you hear in the beginning (I could perform it live, although I'm pretty sure I didn't in this version). A bit long, but it goes places.

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I miss hanging out with other people, playing Rock Band together or watching a movie. I miss 1 on 1 conversations with people either IRL or online.

My life now is wake up, try to get through the day, go to sleep several times, eat several times... I don't like this.

I'm pretty sure I had a dream recently where I hung out with people that don't really exist. Like a group of maybe 3 or 4 other "friends" just hanging out. It made me sad, because I don't have anything like that.

I barely have any contact with anyone, except a few of you guys, which means a lot.

I'm sad that I cannot play FFXIV because of my social anxiety, but I'm really happy that I made it to the end of 7.0 (Dawntrail). I would've liked to have kept going, I just can't group up with strangers.

One of the best gaming experiences of my life, especially Shadowbringers into Endwalker.

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Against the Wind (No Rush) (2023)

Against the Wind (No Rush) 🎵

From 2023's album ADBC II. Probably one of my favorite variations of the song, which is normally a video game drum and bass track.

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I completely forgot about Shadow of the Colossus. I'd probably rank it higher than God of War. My top 4 are games I played the shit out of and completed. Man now I'm listening to the SotC music and feeling nostalgic :(

I feel like I'm not growing at all as an artist. Yeah, I have almost 1,200 songs written. They could be better, but I don't really know how to make them better.

I know my music is missing something. Curious if it's a me issue (boring music), or a missing element, like vocals. I may never know.

I just want to be heard, but I also don't want to go viral. I can't handle that much attention. I don't know how much attention I can handle, so I don't know how many listeners would make me happy. I am happy that some people listen.

I think I just want interactions, people giving me thoughts.

Is it weird that I don't like the idea of making money off my own music? I make music because I love music, and making it is fun as hell. I'd probably be a video game music composer if money wasn't involved. I don't want to take gigs away from other composers, though. Not that I "can" if I wanted to

The PS2 turns 25, here are my 4 faves

#blutoid

YouTube video by Alphadeus Alphadeus - Drifting Through My Imagination (2011)

Drifting Through My Imagination 🎵

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Getting close to November 9th, the day my father died back in 1997.

I almost always write a song for my father, and back in 2022 I released a full album called "Dear Father". I might have something for this year, although nothing is planned. If it happens, it'll be spontaneous.

Man, I don't like not having a music project to work on. I guess I could do an ADBC IV? Alphadeus Banger Collection go!

Or CHIPS X, why not. 3 CHIPS albums in one year is not too many :p j/k

Aliens Have Penetrated Our Base (2001?) 🎵

You probably won't ever hear this song elsewhere. I don't think it's on my channel. I wrote it in 2001 or so, and is the 1st time I used "loops" with my recorded performances. It was one of the eJay programs I had back then. It's not on an album, either.