abandoned

this is good news, you're doing great, take your time to heal❤️

hey, it's okay to reach out to someone and ask if they are able to hear you out. you're going through a lot and it's hard to always deal with feelings on your own, unload the bottled up stress. professional help is optimal but not everyone has access to it. sharing with friends and family is alr too

dm me, maybe? or at least talk to all of us here, you need to vent

YES.

you're so real, my exact thoughts except with drawing😔

i never thought my art could have such impact. that made me happy, thank you for sharing😭❤️

swag asf🔥

thank you so much for your kindness. i'll keep it up😤💕

i love your stories, you're very skilled on both ends, imo. your style is simply delicious and the plot is fun to unravel, it's engaging. each flows smoothly, elegantly, you feel it, the story is definitely there, it's well put together, a real treat. good stories make you care and yours do❤️

the best would be to talk to a person close to you but letting out some of your pain to strangers is at least something. a little is better than nothing. nobody deserves to go through hardship alone, especially that with no way to solve it. please, talk to us, reach out to someone.

talking helps sort mind. thoughts are chaos, they become meaning when we talk. if we let them sit inside our mind too long they turn into a spiral. sharing, letting feelings overtake you is a step to healing/coping, it's important to have someone there to ground you when your emotions peak.

don't hesitate to vent here. some things we have no control over in our lives and it sucks. bottling up complicated feelings and handling them on your own makes it even more unbearable. you need to talk to someone, share your sorrow, cry, be angry, let it out and have someone there to comfort you.

thank you❤️❤️❤️ i love them so much😭

please, stay safe❤️

np! i recommend checking out his other works too :3
i have a bunch of other later season fics i adore and i plan to share them some time in the future when i make fanart of em. maybe you'll find something you'll like there as well :P

thank you, i thought i was annoying because i've been obsessing over your works, that's a relief, i'm really happy you enjoy my art as well🙏

awww, i didn't expect you'd actually see this, decided not to tag because it was nothing special
thank you sm, it means a lot💕

oh, it is my thing! it's just that it hurts so much to read about it i can only tolerate it on rare occasions x'3 (i cried for about 3 days nonstop after the finale. still do every now and then, can ya blame me XD) your fic was worth it, it killed me and it brought me back to life👍

thank you for your hard work💙❤️ can't praise your fics enough, they're mesmerising, embroidered with such tangible and earnest emotions, vivid imagery, pulls at all the right strings in ya, chef's kiss, love that about your writing

what a painful read, could barely finish it. sam's grief feels suffocating, too real. the show's ending broke me, i try to avoid fics about it but couldn't pass your work. mistakes were made, hit me in the feels too hard! finished reading some minutes ago but still got tears swelling in my eyes

god, this fucked me up so bad, had to stop every other sentence to bawl my eyes out. each line brings such raw emotion it's almost too much, unbearable. sam reminiscing about the sweet little moments they once shared with dean broke me. i hated it, i loved every bit of it. beautifully written❤️

i've never interacted with fandoms before posting wincest sorry for having a crash out i let the negativity get to me
ig i should be getting used to this😢
well anyway... i have a sketch done imma post soon

both soul-crushing and satisfying to read, a part of me wanted them back, as human, but their twisted tainted love, their new shared darkness in the overturned and grim world they built just for themselves absorbed me. oh, the way you write your sam and dean never cease to amaze me. terrific work

!! <3

yw thank you for reading this🤲🤲❤️

some fuses go off inside dean's head, it stirs his protective big brother instincts and suddenly he's there again, with sam, cradling him with his strong arms, rocking them and humming softly, he presses a tender kiss on sam's temple, as if they are kids again, a small surrender, sam won

sam ends up snapping at dean, pushing him hard into the wall, forcing into talking, confessing openly, admitting he hates feeling as if he's just using dean and he catches a spark of hostility in dean's eyes, sam finally breaks down crying, hiding his face in his big brother's neck for some comfort

if it doesn't sound or look like he or sam is enjoying it that makes it somehow right and fixes everything, not acknowledged never happened, a perfect loophole in the system but it makes sam feel filthy as if dean's an unwilling participant and he's more distant than ever, even if sam is inside him

sam gets none of it, any time sam's teeth start grazing dean's skin he gets a low "sam", a warning, another order to obey and sam does. when sam goes all out and loses control dean hides the evidence left by his brother right after, if you can't see it then it must mean it's not there, right?

sam hates but obeys the rules, he'd always wanted dean, needed him like oxygen, ever since puberty hit all sam could think of is holding dean's waist down and making him lose it, leaving hickeys and bruises on his perfect skin, claiming him so no girl could have him again