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i don’t think i’m very worthy of friendship. my emotional state is too volatile and i’m such a boring person. i’m incredibly lucky that i have friends that i love and cherish but i just. i don’t get why they would put up with me. but they do and very grateful. it just confuses me

this account has basically just become a vent which sucks. it’s mostly just because there’s maybe one person that would see the posts and everywhere else it would be everyone. if you see all this i’m sorry

but i could never do that either. my friends are the reason i keep going. and i want to be able to keep going. i love them so much

i hate it. i don’t want to feel this way. i love my friends and i trust them. and despite that im still worried that ill be left all alone. it’s counterintuitive but it makes me want to just. pull away. because at least then there would be a reason for what my brain keeps telling me is inevitable.

that they wouldn’t. it doesn’t seem like something that any of them would do. but i’m so scared regardless and i hate it. i know it’s partially because it’s happened before with a friend group where they just decided collectively they didn’t want to hang out with me and didn’t even tell me why but.

it genuinely really sucks to be constantly terrified and convinced that eventually everyone you love is going to figure that i’m too uninteresting or evil to be friends with and leave me. it’s uncharitable to the people i love and that just makes it worse. i know they wouldn’t do that. or i hope

pissing me off

yuri i was reading was looking like they were gonna get together but the last chapter of it just had a confession and they did the whole (love interest misunderstanding: i like you too! (platonically)) and the protag not seeing she misunderstood until later when it was too awkward to clarify -_-

it would genuinely be so great if there was a moment in my life where i was alone but not lonely. i don’t want to be so desperate for human interaction. i want to be able to be by myself. but every time i am i feel so desperately alone

it’s just not possible for someone to love me in that way i think

i think one day it would be nice to participate in some kind of romance. it would be nice to love and be loved in return. it’s a shame it’ll never happen

like before i transitioned essentially my dysphoria overwhelmed my brain problems to an extent that i didn’t notice them but now that dysphoria is only the cause of half my spirals the brain problems feel so much worse.

genuinely hate being mentally ill so much. i wish i had just. a teeny bit less brain problems. would make my life so much easier. sucks to feel like shit every single night for what is essentially nothing even if my brain latches onto it like a leech

WOOOOO!!!!!

she could dance with her forever

it becomes almost instinctual, reacting to her dance partner, and maybe some conversation happens. she’s grown fond of karmalita but she has to slay her and take the heart in order to save pharloom. and the yuri is as much about her grappling with that. because she knows that memories don’t age.

amusing myself while fighting skarrsinger karmalita in silksong by imagining its yuri. hornet doomed to forever outlive her partners finds herself repeatedly ‘dancing’ with a memory of the past. over and over she gets beaten and her respect for karmalita grows each time.

Fascist down!!!

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woah. nohgt shfit

also i’d like to apologize in advance is this is a misinterpretation of the ask for nice things in general ahahaha

in general though i think you’re a really cool person. you’re very thoughtful and kind, and i always look forward to hanging out with you. you’re interesting and funny and i genuinely enjoy talking to you so much

i also think you’re really good at character design. your ocs look really really cool and interesting and the little touches of personality you add to their clothing and what have you are really fun, and your scars are cool too

one of the things i like most about your art is probably the way you do colors. the color gradients and the actual picked colors themselves look really really good and contrast nicely with your lines ^^ generally i think you’re art is incredible and it’s always so cool to get to see it.

it’s really good!!! the fury and witch are both so good. i think my favorite is maybeeeeee also the fury. love the fighting forever scene

!! ^_^

on it boss o7