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the day after halloween and the day after valentine's are what we ostentatious home decor lovers call our "Bread and Butter"

every time i say “my city now” im afraid people don’t know what I mean because meguka might have been lost to time so just for the record I mean this

i should smile less

at the risk of sounding conceited my passport photo came out surprisingly sexy

it's itchio creator day, so itch won't take a cut of any game sales made today!! if you've ever wanted to pick up a copy of EotP, or if you already have it and want to gift a copy to someone else, today's a great day to do it!

An image macro of two deep sea fish edited to be clinking wine glasses, overlaid by the lesbian pride flag. The macro reads: Its been one of those weeks... ...Pass the yuri !!!

A ground-level photo of a white mushroom with a large, round cap growing in grass next to a sidewalk.

they can be friends

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Atsushi in that one manga panel #bsd #bsdart

account context menu with a new "kill this guy" option

just got the latest bluesky update wtf

allow me to bless this acc with a chuuya first

#bsd #chuuya

background practice

#dazai #bsd

this was for nikolai's birthday
#nikolai #bsd

so glad to have a stream-of-consciousness posting platform again. tumblr just doesnt scratch the itch the way this format does.

idk. ocd awareness week was recently and I didnt remember until just now so I'm feeling contemplative. all this to say: bathroom faucet suck my nuts I'm not scared of you anymore. mostly.

being the research-oriented (read: rabbit hole prone) person that I am, sometimes I'm struck with how much going to therapy ends up being a trusted authority telling me things I already know but don't trust my own judgement/understanding of

so how could I know it was okay to try to let go of the coping mechanisms that make me miserable and exhausted but also kept me alive? who am I to know what's best for me?

idk. I've always considered ocd to be a condition of 'what if's, of not being able to trust tour own perception or judgement of the events around you. which sucks, because it makes for a person with a ton of self doubt (me, specifically)

and it was too scary to even consider that to be the case even a few weeks ago. because what if it did leave me debilitated? what if nothing had changed after all the work I've done? what if it was all for nothing, you know?

but now that I'm in a better place, have more experience, am properly medicated and have a solid support system, it *is* time to examine the spike of anxiety that triggers the compulsion and find out if it will leave me crying on the floor like it did ten years ago or if it'll dissipate quickly

like, 10+ years after a diagnosis and many more years of symptoms, it *does* make sense that some of these compulsions are built on pure habit rather than actual debilitating anxiety the way that they used to be. and they did used to be! to the point of complete shutdown!

ocd is a tricky bastard I'll tell you that much. made a bit of a breakthrough yesterday that seems so obvious in hindsight but just didn't occur to me through the anxiety goggles

#BSD #nikolaigogol

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Dance of the Mad God

Free fall
[ #bsd #dazai #art ]

Himalayan blue poppy, Kabru
🦋

#dungeonmeshi #kabru

A gray cat laying in the sun, using a shoe like a pillow.

my shoooooooeeeeee 💞

M Miku ?!
Posting Berd Miku to your fresh new Bsky feeds.
@berd.bsky.social
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