B Free

Came home today and just cried because on a friend’s birthday that I lost to suicide, I got to be in court on behalf of someone who also lost their battle with depression and idk what the word is for being so overcome with grief and gratitude simultaneously but I am FEELING IT today 🙏🏼

I took a second while I was getting ready for work this morning and realized I flew across the country to be the lead paralegal for a Federal civil rights trial and I’ve basically achieved a life goal. And I’m really fucking grateful.

#ParalegalLife is spending months finding and calming down a wildcard witness, chasing them to practice with the attorneys, booking their travel, only for the attorney to be like “You were right, cancel them” 3 days before they testify.

Traveling for work is wild because I can expense uber eats but then I have to submit all those girl dinner receipts and someone has to be like wow why did this bitch order nachos and a slice of chocolate cake for dinner 3 times last week?
Because I’m PMSing Kevin that’s why.

I had a not decaf espresso in my latte this morning and now I can’t sleep and at work today I questioned an inefficient system and suggested changing it and no one seemed on board so if you need me I’m just laying here spiraling in regret and caffeine induced anxiety

Me: I’m working from the hotel tomorrow, the office is open concept and I couldn’t concentrate today.
Brad: lol you’re so funny. You travel hours to where your office is just to work from home.
Me: ☺️

The roller coaster of emotions that is trial prep means having a pit of anxiety in my stomach at 5:45 am about a project and then leaving work at 5:00 pm like psh piece of cake. My brain just hates me. Or the ashwagandha kicked in.

LOL absolutely not 🤣

Slowly descending into the anxiety of a never ending to do list in my brain before a 3wk trip for trial. Trying to organize the room for the dog sitter, get my personal shit together, and organize a team of 4 attorneys? Send help.

She’s drinking caffeine until trial is over 🫣

My packing anxiety is starting to set in because I have a 3 week trip coming up and I’m so used to backpacking that I have to keep reminding myself I’ll be in a major city with a washer/dryer and I don’t need to pack every single pair of leggings I own. Like babe relax we’re going to Denver.

*catching up over breakfast when Brad gets off shift*

Brad: how was your day yesterday?
Me: I lost our dog. IN the house…He was passed the ✨FUCK✨ out between the wall and the stack of pillows and comforter in the guest bed while I washed the sheets.

On a scale of 1 - toxic ex how petty is it that I started using my old work email as a junk email account so whoever is monitoring it is getting spammed with all the airport WiFi ads from everywhere I travel now that I work remotely 👀

As someone who can’t wait to bake in the sun like a lizard, waking up to 52° in FL this morning…. What in the six more weeks of winter is this?!

Anytime I get a cutting board out my dog thinks he’s getting carrots. Or bell peppers. Or cucumbers. Or apples. Or zucchini. Or cheese. Or celery.
(I created the monster)

The funny part about people who 🙄 at people who talk about The Handmaids Tale coming true is that it’s a book about people that rolled their eyes about it coming true.

On our firm weekly meeting we start with a few Rose & Thorns and we really need to rethink this because this week one person announced a miscarriage and then the next person was like “umm…I got married over the weekend….” and me and my coworker bestie are messaging separately like 😬😬😬

It finally happened. I met someone who went to the same highschool as me and when I asked what year they graduated it was a full decade after me and I was humbled REAL quick.

If your first instinct after standing up for someone is to announce what you did and post the messages where she thanks you on social media, then maybe you didn’t do it for the right reasons 🤷🏻‍♀️

I haven’t been using an alarm since I got a remote position and my office is 2 hrs behind me.

I have NOT adjusted with daylight savings. I’ve been waking up at 8:30-8:45 every day this week 😮‍💨