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Gf's been playing one of my fave childhood games all day and it's making me very happy to share it with her 🩷💚

Bf also wants to quit smoking (and vaping) cuz he was worried about his breathing. Having an accountability buddy for sobriety is gonna be really helpful for sure, and I know he'll need my help.

Chicken, veggies, lentils, and rice for dinner tonight. Then i'll also have lots of lentils & rice leftover for fried rice and whatnot too

I love birthday cake flavours a lot, but I prefer chocolate for actual cakes. That creamer is my fave fr

Thank you! I was able to quit cold last year for surgery, so hopefully I can manage to do it again

Yessss it's on the way my fave playset from my childhood will be mine once again!

I get a veryyy similar one and it's soooo good

I think I'm gonna hard quit smoking once I run out of weed again. I'm worried it's hurting me physically too much now since being post-op. I haven't had chest pains like this before, so I really gotta quit. Plus I need to be sober one day, may as well start trying now.

My brain isn't great right now :/

Pain is really bad again this morning which makes sense cuz I barely slept. Hopefully it doesn't drive me insane today.

Oh well. If he wants to see me he can carry soda for me upstairs so we don't have to worry about walking it home later.

Guess I'm lucky I was technically awake. I'm not mad at him for waking me at least, but I am frustrated that he definitely would have if I wasn't already a bit awake.

Oh nvm. He did read my messages. He just still called me anyway. Even though I said I didn't even start trying to go to bed at 5am... Why tf did he call me??? Why can't he just wait literally ever when I wanna sleep in?

Well I was technically awake but barely and definitely dozing back off but it's fine everything is too noisy now anyway for me to sleep so I would be awake now anyway. Just frustrated he didnt read my texts now.

Bf woke me up by calling. I texted on two different things that I was sleeping, and he still woke me up. Why can't he just read my texts ever???? I'm tired, I'll be lucky to sleep anymore

I just want to sleep I'm so exhausted I don't wanna think about my multiple assaults and how horrible my mother is back to back I'm tired I don't wanna live in this brain anymore

Even when it's quiet and my body is extremely exhausted I can't sleep because I keep getting attacked by fucking traumatic memories. I'm sick of my brain and my body

I'm in so much damn pain. All Ive been doing for hours is laying down flat, and I'm still in so much pain

Well I burnt myself out physically by sitting upright for an hour and a half. Gonna lay down for now

Cold, weed, and tylenol helped with pain for now. I can think a bit which is nice

Cold helps with pain so I'm gonna sit outside in -12°C and hope I feel a little better. My brain is mush, useless. Everything feels sharp and hot and horrible and I want to scream.

Pain spiked really bad suddenly..can't really think

New theme for my birthday month. Fave colour and all 💚

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Happily don't know it anymore but she does deserve that minimum

I was wondering why I feel soooo exhausted and worn out, I forgot I took my immunosuppressant yesterday lol. Of course all I wanna do is lay in bed