Becca Rose | AuDHD Millennial

Dang just the other day my mom came over to go the laundromat with me and when I tell you that it’s very apparent that I’m dealing with chronic fatigue and/or hypersomnia… I cannot function at all if I’m as tired as I get, I get such bad brain fog, I can’t even function or do basic shit.

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Been a hot minute since I last posted. Life has been insanely busy to the point where I’m finally coming down from over a year of such high stress and pushing through chronic fatigue (or possibly hypersomnia or both) and likely fibromyalgia (doctor just said likely). Now I’m in severe burnout.

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Sensory issues at the moment are gonna make me lose my shit! Bras are the bane of my existence… itchy and uncomfortable and I get awful sweat rashes from them, then there’s chafing on my thighs. Can existing not be so uncomfortable 🥴 Ugh I feel all itchy and irritated… showering didn’t help.

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I have great news!! I finally found an affordable housing that I can afford! I’m moving into an apartment in a couple weeks!

The process though is anything but smooth, it’s more drawn out and stressful than it needs to be for final touches on assistance, ESA and forms.

Idk about anyone else but I’m getting really irritated with AI taking over everything. I don’t mind using ChatGPT from time to time, but when I call my medical clinic, health insurance, phone carrier… and they expect me to complete the entire call with an AI bot and not a live human… ugh no thanks 😒

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Cramps, joint pain, back pain, muscle pain, extreme fatigue, allergies… like can this not all be hitting me all at once?? I just need some restful sleep and some relief.

All day I have been beyond tired (and in quite a lot of pain)… and once I go to bed tonight I can’t sleep. Now it’s past midnight and the melatonin didn’t help and I’m wide awake. Doesn’t help that I’m having such bad pain either…

Ugh starting to get signs of carpal tunnel syndrome. Guess I need to find another way to type on my phone other than using both thumbs. I’m gonna try a carpal tunnel wrist splint to avoid any further damage.

And then I stood up to pick something I dropped and tilted the cup of water in my hand spilling it because I’m uncoordinated and clumsy whether I’m high or not, lol 😂

Last night I was high and I was eating cheez its that I had put into a ziplock bag and the bottom of the bag had crushed cheez it crackers, so I was pouring the crumbs in my mouth and accidentally spilled cheez it crumbs in my eye as well 🤣 #highthoughts #thcedibles #edibles #gummies

#autism #autistic #neurodivergent #audhd

I hate having to be the one to even have to educate others because it should be just something people already know. It’s frustrating and being judged or told I’m making excuses or not trying hard enough is so demeaning. It doesn’t make me any less than of a person to need more support.

Just because one person may be “successful” and I say successful in quotations because success is NOT measured by a job or any societal expectations, everyone is different and there are different levels of support needs with autism.

I wish people would not be so ignorant, ableist and judgmental! Being disabled isn’t a choice!! And autism is a spectrum!

Today will be a migraine recovery day, and I’ll have to push out my breath test that will check for SIBO to Thursday… at least it’s a mail in kit that my clinic does because if it were in clinic I’d have to reschedule. I’m taking it slow and easy today.💛

The as needed prescription migraine medication just doesn’t cut it with the intensity of the migraines I get with the heat and humidity… even anti-nausea prescription doesn’t work for me so I’ll have to see if there is another option that would work for me.

I’m going to have to see if my doctor can put me back on a migraine preventative cuz this time of year I get such a big increase in the amount of migraines I get due to the heat and humidity which I don’t tolerate at all.

Last night I had a very intense migraine… I hate it when they get so bad that they cause dizziness and nausea which end up making me sick.

More pics from Chalkfest.

More pics from Chalkfest yesterday

Some pics from Chalkfest in Maple Grove yesterday!

I need to make some serious lifestyle changes to get healthier! It’ll be tough but I need to do this so I feel better!

I am trying to lose weight for my health because doctor suspects non-alcoholic fatty liver disease, I have an enlarged liver and they’ll do further testing. Also have to try an elimination diet for a month which will be tough (no more soda, no processed foods, no dairy, no chocolate…).

So I saw the allergist last week… I’m basically allergic to the outdoors lol… they did a skin prick test for environmental and pet allergies and that tested positive for a lot, even cats… although that won’t stop me from having my cat, Linus… we’re bonded lol. He prescribed allergy meds and inhalers

Omg I’ve accidentally done this before… it’s so mortifying

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Allergies are so bad… between hazardous air quality from smoke from the wildfires up north and also having to be off allergy meds for the week leading up to my allergist appt that I have on Thursday, and not having an air purifier with me (temporarily living with parents til I get my own place) 😩

As if I don’t already have enough health issues I’m dealing with, apparently my body feels like “let’s just add more issues”… and I have a lot of stress trying to get all this other stuff in my life figured out as well. Just A LOT on my plate at the moment. #audhd #autistic #stress #healthissues

Can’t sleep… between stress, pain, my mind not shutting off, too hot or cold (interoception issues)… for the past 5 days I’ve barely slept 😕

Omg omg damn… this documentary on Hulu “Sensory Overload” is what everyone needs to see to actually see what autism really can look like rather than the false stereotypes so many people think about autism. This is so relatable. #autism #audhd #adhd #neurodivergent #sensory

my stomach hurts, I’m dealing with GI issues, I feel half alive… if even that… I don’t feel like I can function a lot of the time and pushing through it just makes it worse. #healthissues #chronicfatigue #chronicpain #chronicillness