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ive done my time in the "a week late or perhaps not at all for a month" mines over the last year+, for now. maybe im actually crawling out of this hole or something who knows

Land Back, by The Myrrors 5 track album

themyrrors.bandcamp.com/album/land-b... p good

injection done a day late 🌕 💉

the psychotic drowns where the mystic swims

am i getting through anything or am i just getting more detached

i meant to make some things happen but my mood crashes last wk for no fucking reason btw

schizoposting on linkedin

one big thing has kinda worked but others im not sure, maybe. maybe. need to do the mediation/focus stuff properly if i can make it work

sigils on 4 pieces of torn paper ontop of a small patterned mat

the magick skwigils that make things happen

YouTube video by Draven Spier Important Things(Specter Magic)-Snowing

youtu.be/_8gwtA40LSY?... peam

sex is good & all but it's giving adoration in so many little ways whose craving bites the most painfully

thinking about playing with a girls hair, hugging her from behind, sweet kisses and such things i can't have at the moment

feeling that seething, crushing, paralyzing hurt that would normally have me wanting to get moderately fucked up but im on a temperance arc so i gotta do something else about it

driving myself fucking mental. i need a circuit break

shes so pretty

YouTube video by Cyrus Pireh This SILVERTONE Was Almost Too Dangerous to ESQUIRE | Set Preparation Part 2

yt alg showed me this guy who wears a train conductor hat & plays 9 string guitar in this rly intricate pretty textured style www.youtube.com/watch?v=EnwM...

forgetting to say goodnight <<<

people tend to drink more in coffee and treat energy drinks as if they're way stronger than they are

super long hair is v cool & pretty i always thought, it has ethereal vibes

emotional avoidance often has me feeling shitty about non reciprocation. its a vicious cycle.

despite lacking outward emotional closeness there's a few people whose nourishing gestures help me more than i can put into words

YouTube video by PhenomenalMysticism The Myrrors - Mother Of All Living

www.youtube.com/watch?v=0IAX...

app for dating surplus call it damaged goods

feeling over my ex by now but very much not the absence that remains

it feels like a hazard & yknow considering *past events* well i guess that makes a lot of sense

all genuine attraction in whatever form ive felt has been with a twinge of desperation & self hate that muddies it until i dont know what i feel at all really

our balcony neighbour also seems to be out lighting incense at small hours c:

using "eldritch" as a generic drop-in for occult-ish horror themes in fantasy media is kind of tired

installed an app blocking timer on my telephone & immediately i feel extra neurotic. this is a good problem

Our flâneur president is exploring the psychogeography of the White House in the context of its urban environment but go off