Epona

it is oddly reassuring to be reading a book from the perspective of my old teacher and find out they, too, are disorganized about administrative stuff in adult life

only one day left in Madison

travelling day and I'm trying a more methodical approach. weird

Crimewatch:
tried to stick his head into the takeout containers at dinnertime. When told no, went meh meh MEH meh squeakily, jumped into the box and leered

i wear my stupid little heart on my stupid little sleeve while feeling all the while like too goddamn much.

what else is new.

thaaaaaank, i got shoots coming up and my roots were super grey

colorrs

Crimewatch:
bit his sister's tummy while they napped, multiple times
bit my toes
climbed the coffee table

Avoidance attachment, anxious attachment, whatever, man.
I don't know how to balance feeling Too Much and trying to curl myself Too Small.
Neither are useful or kind to the me.

and unfortunately this applies for everything platonic to romantic. Don't get me wrong - romance is always spooky. Not many places in life that are as easy to cause grevious injury

I would like for the kind of fear that I have about experiencing emotions to not be so fully gutting, to not feel like a punch to the solar plexus, to not want to stitch my own mouth shut so I can't talk Too Much or be Too Much

a history of pain has led me to believe that everyone will inevitably leave, so it is easier for me to be alone.

a lot of hard work into healing says the people who want to be here will and hurting people doesn't make safety, just regrets

and then sometimes it feels like being dangled over the grand canyon by a hair and your hands are sweating

Sometimes, my equilibrium is great. Whoever stays is the right people, que sera sera, what will be will be.

if you're gonna have my name in your mouth, then I'm gonna be amused it makes you uncomfy to see me

'I want his name to be known:' Wife of immigrant injured at ICE facility shooting speaks out Stephany Gauffeny says she wants the world to know that her husband, Miguel Angel Garcia-Hernandez, is more than "just an immigrant or a detainee, or a criminal."

Stephany Gauffeny says she wants the world to know that her husband, Miguel Angel Garcia-Hernandez, is more than "just an immigrant or a detainee, or a criminal."

ah yes. the mortifying ordeal of being knowne. also known as my overcorrect reflex.

dammit.

do i know any MN kinksters? I have a friend looking to explore and he's feeling anxious/shy about first time outs.

post nasal drip, fatigue, sinus pressure, and random hot flashes x.x

Charlie Kirk, Not In His Own Words: We Honor The Right-Wing Activist By Making Up Quotes That Sound Much Better, Given The Moment

This Week's Onion Magazine:

make sure you're testing! x.x this one comes with hot flashes but better ti be able to get antivirals if need be

Kennedy's vaccine panel expected to recommend delaying hepatitis B shot in children RFK Jr.'s hand-picked panel of vaccine advisors is expected to vote to delay the hepatitis B shot for newborns. Doctors warn that could fuel a return of a disease virtually eradicated in U.S. kids.

RFK Jr.'s hand-picked panel of vaccine advisors is expected to vote to delay the hepatitis B shot for newborns. Doctors warn that could fuel a return of a disease virtually eradicated in U.S. kids.

Sometimes it would be cool to be less of a dumpster fire. Like. I'd be down with the ability to have a normal interaction.
Would be p dope.

w/o downloading anything new, where are you mentally?

Check if it's unionized.
Remind the staff what ICE did to the SEIU (Service Employees International Union) California leader

ah to carry someone else's grief in your bones

sometimes I forget I'm a sadist and then I watch one of my friends have good pain and go 🤤😂🥵😈😈

I had some fun
Madison trip moved to mid Oct

there is no liberation without queer liberation. sex work is almost always intertwined with political activism. intersectionality applies to all of these

oh god, I think I'm experiencing personal growth past trauma response.

rad but real weird to be aware of in the moment xD yay therapy?