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Bean dip splattered on the wall and the bowl is on the floor surrounded by ice cubes after being dropped by the waiter

Current mood

A drawing of a crow in a dress stirring a pot. Caption: I don’t need a recipe for disaster. I usually just eyeball it.

Happy Saturday!

I wish I didn’t spiral at night because then it feels like I’m putting all my bad feelings on my people and that’s not what I want to be doing,,, I’m just not used to having someone in my space when I’m mentally crashing out

Of course the time my sister and parents find a stray pregnant cat is also the time I just moved in with my persons and together they already have three cats so we can’t reasonably get a another 😭

I’m always confused on why I don’t feel well,,, and then I realize that I’ve been working for twelve hours and the only sustenance I’ve had was a redbull spritzer, salt and vinegar chips, and my adhd meds,,, and then I’m no longer confused

mangle from five nights at freddy 's is holding a mirror . Alt: mangle from five nights at freddy 's playing with a a paddle ball toy

anxiety and stress are making my chest feel like my heart is bouncing against my ribs…

or like there is a strange animatronic with a paddle ball using. my ribs like a goddamned xylophone

I need taco bell to have all day breakfast because I am always in need of a toasted breakfast burrito

adhd is like having time dilation powers and having no control over them.

some times it feels like it’s been hours but when you check it’s only been a few minutes

other times, you get really in the zone and glance at the clock and realize you haven’t moved in 3 hours

success is learning a new color guard toss and only breaking three nails in the process

I’m torn because my hair is finally long enough to go in a messy bun but I looked so cute with short hair

im not afraid of the dark, im just afraid of being jump scared in the dark,,, and i think that that accurately sums up my anxiety disorder

it is past bedtime and the brain is still demanding significant amounts of stimulation. it’s like wrestling a sleep deprived toddler into bed for a nap

almost makes me wish i had the curse my co worker has where he just gets shit all the time,,, at least he gets to sleep

in my line of work it seems like everyone ends up with with a curse of specific types of cases/calls that they constantly get,,,

mine are calls that come in between dinner time and sleepy time, ones that keep me up late when i have to get up early the next morning.

Photo of a kitten sitting on a laptop

On my puter

how is it that every night leading up to my on call shifts are always terrible and i never get any good sleep???

if i could actually sleep when i am tired that would be great thanks

i love being exhausted with my chest tight with anxiety and unable to sleep knowing that i have a long busy day tomorrow

i want to call my people when i am driving but they all have this thing called “work” so they are always “unavailable”

like i just recently finished ōkami because i missed it

Orchestra on stage with a large screen behind them saying “Ōmkai Sequel”

screaming crying
but in a good way

pov your bestie tells you to eat a specific jelly bean cause she knows youll love the flavor and completely forgets youre not supposed to eat peppermint and even tho you know you shouldnt you savor that moment because you fucking love peppermint even if you do end up with a migraine later

gotta love those dreams that wake you up by dipping you into trauma and fear you didnt realize you had ☺️

theres always a such nice motivational quote at the bottom of my paystub, for example this week it says

“coworkers are like christmas lights, half of them dont work and the other half arent so bright” ☺️☺️☺️

cherry Dr Pepper can with red hearts around it

i have to hang around the office and for a package and im tortured with the knowledge that my love is waiting for me at home all alone

and the few weeks of almost normalcy in between flare ups are just cruel at this point

When i say i want to get better, i mean that i want to be fully healthy again,,, not just slightly less sick then i used to be