fern, but more!

i'm learning i'm growing etc etc

don't block my gf, subtweet her and then keep following me as if everything's normal lol girl wtf. we've never even interacted before how much do you think you can get away with

i should probably get more mean

it'll be fine i'm gonna get breakfast and read comic books

cynthia couldn't get every day of the trip off work so i'm waiting here until she's back :( god i have seperation anxiety

yeah wow emotions go brrrrrrrr

god i get to hold her in my arms. it's today. today is today

i can tell i'm gonna cry so many sad tears and happy tears today. it's also shot day so my estrogen is 📈📈📈

this is going to be a very very beautiful trip but god i'm going to miss my wife and my brothers and my friends and my cats. and when i get back my heart is gonna be aching for cynthia so much. long distance is rough

polyamory is weird emotionally because this trip is so exciting and finally getting to see cynthia is going to change my brain chemistry but also this will be the longest time i've spent away from mercury in years. lots of big, complicated emotions in such a silly little brain

tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ouhh my brain hort

what do you MEAN three more days!????

every time i think about this trip i get so excited and nervous and impatient that i feel like i'm gonna throw up. i feel like a shaken up soda bottle rn

i need that so badly sweet girl... 💞

being with her for ten days is going to be so healing. i need this trip it's all i can think about

god i feel like i should've been up there already. i feel like this gonna be my second visit but i haven't even seen her yet

i think part of my dad finally speaking up is him reckoning with the fact that they'll be empty nesters soon... and then it'll just be the big empty house with him, my mom, and my mom's obsessive post-conversion catholicism

i'm surprisingly completely fine rn. this is interesting for sure but also like... whatever man. i just wanna make sure my youngest brother's alright, he still lives there

if my dad actually stands his ground and speaks up for himself i'll be so proud of him. i have a lot of empathy for my mom rn because she's deeply unwell but my dad deserves to be treated so much better

oh god shit is going on with my parents. i was wondering when something would snap, my mom's let catholicism fry her brain like an egg

i could also probably use adhd meds

i can feel how much estrogen i have in my body today and on one hand i'm doin just fine but on the other hand dear *god* i'm needy. i'm so embarrassed by how needy i am

no one to cuddle :'( i'm just lying here angry. god i hate weekday mornings

had a dream that my dad accidentally ruined a job opportunity for me because he just won't stop misgendering me and i woke up really fucking mad

forgot to say but this went really well!! i can tell talking to this lady is really gonna help me

i need these daydreams to hurry up and become real

girlfriend..... waking up next to girlfriend...... going on dates while holding hands with girlfriend.......

therapy intake today :)))