Fagz

Managed to forgot all my vapes and smokes at home. Single Vyvanse ain't cutting it. Time for some work bathroom shenanigans

Gon take the morning and get myself a coffee and sit and journal for a bit maybe

So disoriented lately I don't know why

New years is being spent at work violently stoned and trying not to cry over how FUCKED my year has been.

Self care is buying yourself motionless in white& ice nine kills pj pants when you are xmas shopping

Trying to do better with tracking all my headaches and possible triggers for them. I hope this shit helps bc I don't want to go on oxygen to treat this stuff

Why am I so stressed out overthis cluster headache diagnosis

Getting diagnosed with cluster headaches (aka suic1de headaches) that's fun

Wtf did i do wrong

I recently stepped on the scale and I'm.fucking disgusted by the number
How did I lose c9ntrol this fucjing badly

Not me finding a way around avoiding coworkers by bust8ng my ass at work

I miss you guys

Finally

Forcibly outted and deadnamed at work, the constant panic i have coursing through my body because ti speak up about it is to have to out myself and state the wrongs the manager did

I'd love to know how shit went so fucking wrong

I'm angry and I don't really know exactly why but I just want to fucking destroy shit

9nly good thing is this shift is going by pretty quick. Praying to whatever higher power that my order will come in bc sleeping is getting scary I just want to exist without anxiety and brain

Panic attack at work, you know what that means! Throwing up and vaping in the bathroom to try and calm myself down

Coworker fucking threw away my water bottle 😡😡😡😡 gotta buy a new one

The isolation i feel tonight is heavy. Skipping my breaks and just work my ass off, no talking to anyone or anything fuck this. I'm sick of clawing and begging for attention.

My order needs to hurry tf up I want my d m t bross

Fucking LOVE when 5he whole team leaves you to do everything alone

Kinda solving the bullshit with my coworker trio. Still overly anxious bc I feel like they are trying to weed me out but idk

Not me st3aling adv1l and giving some to coworker just for her to ask "did you st3al it" bro shut uppp and just take it

Have a sexy mighty fine man to enjoy while I try to avoid posting heavily depressing content thx

Just internally crying bc I am truly alone at work now. I'm just the "extra"/third wheel and they really could care less if i just stopped joining them on breaks.

Migraine been lurking for almost a week,gotta make a doc appointment bc my right eye is still blurryand spotty

Successful in ordering my d m t, lied to my aunt saying the lack of money is from that week I had off. Should get my delivery by next week and the 2 carts should last me a hot minute for sure to help me get through yhe last bit of the year

Yup,just spent 180 on some more dmt, can I technically afford it? No but I'm.do8ng it anyways

Need to lock in.
Need to lock in.
Need to lock in.
Need to lock in.
Need to lock in.
Need to lock in.