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so much of my writing is introspection... I feel like jon is relatively aware of what his emotions are and how they inform his actions... maybe i need to make him stupider

thought #1: Ugh yeah I hate it when writers do that

thought #2, immediately: Wait shit do I do that

I've complained forever about how I wish there were a general 18+ TMA server that didn't suck shit but maybe I should just make one. I don't know how active it would be though

21 year old jon has one (1) beer, sucks on georgie's titty while she gives him a handjob, calls her mommy and immediately cums harder than he ever has in his life, cries for 20 minutes and then breaks up with her the next day in a panic

i want to write about jon discovering his kinks in college... messing around with georgie and then embarrassing himself and preemptively sabotaging the relationship because he thinks she should hate him

goddd I wish I hadn't been such a little bitch in 2021 when the tma fandom was so active and i could've participated more. rip

I'm not writing characters roleplaying either, i.e. jon isn't pretending to be a child, exactly. He just acts like that.

I'm pretty adamant about not using the terms "ageplay" or "age regression" in-fic either, like nothing really acknowledges the idea that there are other people that do this

I think most people would say diegetic: i'm writing characters doing ageplay rather than writing an underage scenario.

But that's not what the fantasy is. I'm not into underage. I'm literally just into a 30 year old man acting like that

thinking about the concept of diegetic kink vs non-diegetic kink and what my particular flavor of ageplay counts as

i haven't talked about jon peeing himself in a while

genuinely sometimes I think about jon having a mommy kink and then I realize he's british so it'd be "mummy" and lose all interest

I think that jon makes him memorize all the names though. and gets mad when he messes them up. "that's mr. PUPPY, not mr. DOGGY!!! it's like you don't even care!!!"

I think he has a lot but not a *ton*, he's pretty picky with them, but when he sees one he likes he gets emotionally attached immediately so elias is basically obligated to purchase it

elias definitely does make him rotate how many he sleeps with/has to kiss fkfjfkffn.

jon making elias kiss all of his stuffed animals goodnight one by one before going to bed

yesss talking about him like he's not in the room

See the problem is for these scenarios I generally want an enthusiastic third partner (regardless of whether jon is lol) and not a reluctant one. I can corrupt Jon easily enough but martin being actively and happily on elias's side is difficult for me to imagine

I think about 80% of the time i talk about jon im talking about him peeing himself and crying. I swear I respect him as a character this is just important to me

The problem with this as a j/e scenario is there's no good option for a third character. But it's fun as a j/m/t scenario

case in point: i want jon squirming and whining in someone's lap while they ignore (or scold) him and carry on a conversation with someone else until jon can't hold it and pees himself

I think this is why I still have a soft spot for jmart scenarios occasionally, because i can very easily stick tim in there and make things weirder

The problem with jonelias is that it's really hard to introduce a third person into their freak (i don't like peter)

chapters 7-9. It's the 666 kudo special!

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I still need to find an excuse to have Jon bite someone in this fic

Ugh see the appeal to me is the build-up of it, though maybe I could write a scene where all of that is implied/referenced. Hmmm

we need to get weirder in this fandom RIGHT NOW!!!

I really need to write a really unapologetic jonelias diaper fetish oneshot and i just cannot think of a good self-contained scenario (i'm specifying oneshot because i cannot get sidetracked writing another 100K+ WORD AGEPLAY FANFICITON)

*4-6. close enough

Chapters 3-6 posted :>

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