Spacehopper 🤷‍♀️

In theory it was banned here years ago. But I know from Action groups online, those barbarians still use hounds during their 'fake' hunts and if real animal happens to get caught up then it is just 'oopsie' which makes me so mad 😠

I do question what kind of brain gets pleasure from hunting down and ripping a poor animal to shreds 🤔 It is messed up, and absolutely should not be a thing. I hope it gets banned.

Went into town for the first time in months yesterday(have run out of everything) Still super fragile, so I burst into tears when I was in my favourite 2nd hand bookshop. The wonderful owner spared his own time to sit with me & offer me some grief & mental health advice. There are still kind people

It is almost as if a Goblin compels you to do so 🤔😋

:Raises hand:...I have been slowly eroding in the murk and rain...needed a quick day of Summer to persuade my brain that maybe everything is okay...Normal 'bers' weather service to resume imminently, where I will head back into my duvet fort.

I just had an argument so massive with my parents that I screamed, guttural & raw until my throat was sore. They told me to grow up. I can't leave. I have no support. I am traumatized, grieving &deeply depressed. Waiting lists for mental health start at 4 months. I sobbed until I had a panic attack.

It took a depressingly short amount of time for all communication from most friends to completely stop while I struggle with grief, depression, isolation & a general void of enthusiasm/energy/motivation. If no one else cares, why should I? I am empty.

I really enjoyed the book. I hope I will get the chance to see it in the UK. I can't afford all the different streaming services.

In case you are wondering this what isolation really feels like. My cat died. It was traumatic. I don't speak much anymore. Few (2) of my friends have asked maybe once how I am doing. I am empty, broken, deeply unhappy, not sleeping or really eating, don't go out. Have nothing. This isn't a 'life'

I am pretty done to be honest. Cat died last week. I am heartbroken. I have zero in person friends. My narcissistic boomer parents are driving me nuts. And this app is about to require ID I don't have (&/or not providing. So I guess I am about to become even more isolated.What the Fuck is the point.

Oh and today mum just got a skin cancer diagnosis after 2 YEARS of doctors gaslighting & giving her creams which did absolutely nothing...So, tell me again how the NHS isn't broken. I am pretty much done with this week.

So.Dad in hospital last week, no wonder there are no beds when it takes 3 days for a constant to even show up. My cat is in renal failure & has stopped eating so I don't think he is going to be with us much longer. I am NOT ready for that...

Today has been mentally and physically stressful 😞 I don't have the energy for anything. My poor cat is hardly eating & there really isn't much I can do for him as he is in renal failure...they said he was doing okay a couple of weeks ago, but I don't think he is going to last the month. Heartbroken

Going through a box of old stuff...found my pin up poster collection from the 90s...teenage me having to make the terribly hard decision between Baywatch hunk David Chokachi or British pop sensations @antanddec.com ....🤔 I will let you guess which one I chose 😏😋

Well, apparently I did not die in my sleep again...which is just disappointing at his point 😞

When depressive episodes happen they just hit you over the head with a sledgehammer with crippling emptiness. I spent most of the day in bed feeling completely drained in my brain & body. When I did venture out of my room said I just had a migraine because I don't have the energy to engage.

Today has been a sad and lonely kind of day. But I did manage to put clean sheets on my bed, so...that I guess 🤷‍♀️

Why do people feel the need to comment about that anyway, just say "Oh I like your top," or "your hair looks nice" ladies would be just as grateful for that kind of compliment 🤷‍♀️🤦🏽‍♀️

I never get to see my friends because of crippling anxiety about travel so I barely leave the house. I have nothing to look forward to & actually worry constantly about what lies ahead...And today I found out my cat is in the early stages of renal failure...So, what is the point exactly 🤷‍♀️😞

Right, just so I understand things correctly. The world is once again at the whims of a bunch of toddler man-babies fighting over power & oil. The cost of everything is about to spiral once again when I am already struggling to even buy basic toiletries....

It somehow annoys me immensely that 'they' are not wrong about a walk being good for your mental health. I will say, it is much easier to be persuaded to partake when the weather is like this #walks #mentalhealth #seaviews #sunshine

Cloudy Sunday and a temp drop of over 15°c since yesterday...a vibe

Managed another walk, lungs slightly improving, and then read my book sitting on the Prom. Pretty decent couple of hours spent to be honest

I am one of those weirdos who loves the hotter temps. I do not thrive in cold...or wet...or cloudy. I am solar powered & need warmth to function better than a permanently grumpy Goblin.

The water is far too cold for me...and because of certain infamous water companies a little high in 💩

Enjoy my afternoon beach view today 😉🌊☀️

Enjoy these warm Spring views from my first walk in nearly a month...since a respiratory infection took hold of my lungs. I am still wheezing and coughing, but very, very slowly improving. This mile & a half round trip was all I could muster.

It is gorgeously warm & sunny outside but I am still wrestling with a nasty cough from a respiratory virus I caught at the beginning of April. Any walking is a struggle for my lungs & my mental health is taking a hit. No energy or enthusiasm. This is why I wish people would not spread illnesses.

oh, these are 2 very different films. The Secret of my Success does also have some strange relationship set-ups though...even for the 80s 🤔

Not to be mistaken for The Secret of my Success, an 80s classic which also has themes of powerful men, but also, I would suggest, has a lot more Michael J Fox disrobing in elevators 😉😂