Arachne, beeper of beeps

Portland is peaceful.
"Antifa" is fictitious.
Worldviews vehemently against fascism are ethical and wise.
Inciting violence is pathologic.

Every time I hear this album, I will think

Free Palestine 🇵🇸

Spineless collaborator of the dignified eugenicist shows up after ten years-ish to chide the 🏳️‍⚧️'s lack of empathy, refuses to see the irony when confronted with it point blank.

This completes the write off of that entire family wing of ideologically-ambivalent pseudo-confederate cowards. 🪦 to me.

Mark [estranged-side-of-family sis "feeling unsafe around me" for R:P a meme re: a dead fascist,

bc "NEWSFLASH", (literally the word used),"I'm just like [fascist]"] on my bingo card of shit I didn't expect in 2025.

Surprising, not shocking. Disappointing IAC.

Blood relations are overrated.

I mean, if there aren't any ID'ing features attached to the weener, it would kind of require admitting to sending an unsolicited dick pic to contest the use-of...

I loaded two different U-Hauls today (and drove one for the first time ever-- terrifying.)

Does this mean I've finally earned my lesbian wings?

I've got no tears for the guy who made a brand out of hating queers experiencing entirely predictable consequences. But I'll have to take the short-term morale boost with the bitter feeling that shit's about to really ramp up in the next couple weeks.

I'll admit to my own level of satisfaction to see karma in action, but also terrified for how this is gonna speed up the stormtroopers.

(And it's kinda annoying to see some ppl on the left finger wagging ppl for celebrating a death. Feels very "but do you condemn Hummus"-coded.)

It would either be very hard or exceedingly easy to forge my signature- as *I* can't even seem to get it to come out legibly, or the same shape twice.

Food truck with a diner rail. Portable, open late-night fry-ups for the whole neighborhood. Theio's on wheels.

"Monday mind tricks don't work on me, only lasagna" -Garffo

Maybe I'm a hater. Or maybe I read Fahrenheit 451 in HS, and think it's entirely plausible one of these will be tackling and stun-gunning myself or someone I care about.

Sick flip tho, yeah.

Moms can't understand why I'm scowling at America's Got Talent audition of Boston Dynamics, a sync'd robot dog dance.

Hard to explain to fmr. prison guard:cute robodog dance is soft face PR m/f consent of military contractor that wants it tasering minorities, political opps w/i an election cycle.

W/ my arthritic knees & thumbs as they are: it feels like a disability milestone that I'm now reliant on the sturdy metal hand bar of the nearby stair climber to get out of bed. The option to pull up takes so much creak, lurch and pain-press off my joints. Installing grab rail wherever I sleep next.

Yes I'd like to make a New Order of six Peter Murphins, the Nitzer Egg and cheese bagel with the Robert Schmear-- and thennn... A Cocteau cookie, Focaccia of the Nephilim, Brioche Mode, Lavash and Rockets.

And after that,

Hey now, hey now now,
sling this croissantwich to me

I think tonight, to be ripe;
for a good, old-fashioned,
therapeutic ugly cry ~ ~

Maybe it's being a queer socialist snowflake or smtg, but I kinda fucking hate fake nice that calm talks its own legitimacy to offend.

Make one then, I guess

The implication somehow being that Newsom wouldn't do the same things to the homeless and queers that Trump's doing?

Begging liberals to stop making folk heroes out of centrists.

Everyone I love is in so much pain and so am I and we're all so exhausted it's getting harder and harder to be there for each other even though we know that being there for each other is how we get through it. None of us are sleeping enough or eating enough.

I might have to hang it up on coloring my hair, for good. q_q

age 15: Computers are amazing! I'm going to do amazing things with computers!

age 45: explaining to the fourth person this week why Chat GPT is not a replacement for google or the library or friends

I don't mind getting he/himmed so much by strangers anymore. Saves me time getting to know them.

"Gender is Boring" - She/Her/Hers

Like yes, on paper I like 'woman' so much more than 'man', until I remember it's just the inverse of the codified box I had to bust out of.

"Am I still an egg, MtF yet unrealized? I play a lot of female char.s for s1 dressing masc."

(Then body fantasy = like: muscular femme twink w/ big hair, long spindly limbs/claws. Very it/its.)

Maybe not. Closer to 'W' than 'M' inside, but decidedly neither. Here's to a lifetime of misgendering.

Sitting by my garden listening to cicadas, and trying to read my P-Orridge between the doomscroll. Wondering how soon is too soon for someone of my birth assignment and pale face to rationally fear getting rolled up on by the gestapo for prior crimes of being queer and sad to a mandated reporter.

When I wrote all that yesterday, it was attempting to be inspirational. Today it reads shortsighted.

Not knowing specifics of your situation, idk if any of that even applies.

I just know the wheel of fortune is round, & spinning. Hang onto it, & ask for help. Grief fades. Better times will come.

I floop the ratto

But only if WOMAN, bc SNAKE IS LIAR. MAN RIBS.

The money will get right. The skeptics will filter out. The sets change. New fears, new excitements, new joy. All yours if you can only see them and walk in their direction at an even pace.