Cale Buns

I hate the feeling of wanting to rant, throw things, and generally work out my frustration but actually doing those things makes me feel even worse after.

All I wanted to relax after setting up my avatar in Resonite. Apparently Resonite had other plans as it won’t spawn my finished work.

Oooh music! I’ll see if I can’t make it in to hear some ^¥^

I see your point to a degree, however having a backup plan is always a good thing. I currently play both and I love both. However their complaints aren’t new.

The argument that if it doesn’t work now it will in the future is a big ask of anyone.

I’m keeping Reso just in case, it has potential.

However as good as it is, the lack of community and activities with friends that aren’t essentially Karaoke, Gambling, or NSFW events, and don’t act like that last one isn’t the most popular of the 3.

I feel your comparison is about right. Resonite is niche, VRC is not, nothing wrong with that.

This is part of the reason why I have been playing both, I’m more partial to VRC if I want to chill, watch a movie, or do a social activity.

Resonite, while very good just does not have the community I personally connect with the most. I like to tinker and play with setting on occasion

Ah yes, that magic moment where you cannot find adequate music for your mood. All because you can’t decide on how to feel for some reason.

#idk

I didn’t make it to the con, but I hope you are doing well, I know that they all ask what are you, but not how are you. XD

First real day of vacation with the Reso peeps is tomorrow, hopefully it goes better than today. I had fun, made some money in the casino, but also had some flashbacks that sent me into a spiral. Tomorrow will be better, we got this!
#Resonite #friends #casino #vacation

Uggggh fuck today, fuck humans, fuck everything. Burn it all down I don’t give a fuck!

#done #FuckThisShit

Update:
I “beat” Blue Prince, and by best I got the credits and have so many questions… so guess who is going to keep playing to get those answers!

#BluePrince #Gaming #PuzzleGames

Yooooo looking awesome!!!

Things Callie should be doing:
- cleaning the closet
- making dinner
- practicing guitar
- practicing art

Things Callie is actually doing:
-playing the Blue Prince

#sucess #gaming #PuzzleGamesRock

Does anyone wanna explain why removing someone, or really in this case, multiple people from my telegram and discord friends list feels nice? Just seems like a bad thing to enjoy, maybe it is the same reason I feel accomplished after cleaning my room/desk/kitchen. Just nice to deal with old clutter?

Warrior Rabbit!!

The Paladin idea wasn't working out so well so I will be returning to that later.

#furry #furryart #dnd #fantasy #digitalart

Yooooo that is awesome!

Me when?

Man today was tiring, work was pretty busy and I managed to resolve an outstanding situation. I learned that expectations and relying on others is all good and well, but plan accordingly and keep working towards resolving a responsibility if it is yours, anything less opens you up to pain.

This is such a mood! I know I have anxiety about being a bother to others, but I try not to let it hold me back from talking to the people I and miss.

Art: @SoulFullHyena <-on X no Bsky

Ooooh yeah! I also about to go through and get my winter clothes put away so I’m gonna do the closet next

I might have over done it today, I rearranged my room, it feels good, but man am I tired and still have a ways to go to be done entirely

It seems the longer I live and the more I see the less I want to exist anymore. I really don’t want to keep watching this world burn and realize I am just more tender for the flames.

Spoke to my doctor today, we are going to up my anti depressants, we noticed that the anxiety has been ok, but depressive moods and ideation is almost back where it was nearly 2 years ago.

I’m also going to hope that it helps… I’m tired of feeling this way.

(6/6)
Really it is kinda nice and peaceful when I stop caring. It might seem cold, but I really don’t care anymore, talk to me, don’t talk to me, it is all the same really. I’m not going to put more effort into the things and people that don’t seem to do that same back.

(5/?)
Love life, don’t care anymore. Friends, those that care will talk to me, and when I feel social I’ll just reach out. Hobbies, I have guitar, art, and gaming, I would normally put VR there, but I honestly don’t care about it beyond others asking me to hang out.

(4/?)
So I kinda stopped caring most of that day, it honestly wasn’t comfortable, I wasn’t ok at times. However it was good for me.

I needed to stop caring so much, so I kinda have. I’m not saying I don’t have the capacity to care, I’m just not in the mood for it anymore.

(3/?)
Simple you spend time with yourself.
So I did, I had an hour or two in there where I was in a VC on discord, but in reality, I wasn’t checked in and I wasn’t really paying attention.

I think I realized I need to stop caring about how much/what other people think of me.

(2/?)
Not really, so why do I feel like I need to be talking with some one or being social?

Probably because I’m never really ok with being alone with just myself.

We should fix that, other people aren’t there to fill your need for stimulation.

How do I fix this?

Happy Monday I guess?
Had another weekend, and this one brought an interesting thought to me as I sat in my room and played Minecraft with @valnar1.bsky.social on the server they set up.

The thought process went a bit like this:
Huh, am I social enough to go actually talk to someone in a Vc?
(1/?)

Had a conversation with a friend about why they have not seen me on Resonite or in Blood on the Clocktower.

I told them the pretty version of the truth, I have no interest in it recently, the darker more honest one is, I don’t see a point in it anymore, I’ve only had boredom and pain there recently