✨Kat✨

There is something so biblical about taking my anxiety and adhd meds with a monster energy drink

If it makes you feel any better mat, i was one letter away from getting it on my final attempt.

Also if people find me too empathetic and too communicative with people. There’s a reason why i am like this.

You know they fucked up their relationship with you when mutual friends of both them and your’s say it wasn’t your fault that they have an avoidant personality. That’s all i needed to know from this.

Sometimes it a good for my ADHD/ Autistic ass to forget I’m old enough to smoke/ drink and like no one can stop me since I’m an adult because of me forgetting i am not addicting to anything

Bought a pair of camo cargo shorts like almost a month ago and my boss yesterday gave me a warning about the dress code like i haven’t been wearing the pants for a few weeks now and the other managers don’t seem to care what color they are.

I swear the lore of some of my classmates after they get out of high school is crazy because what do you mean that you were working as a bartender while going to school for a teaching job to now being in the U.S. army??

I don’t have the obsessed with trains autism i got the obsessed with airplanes Gary numan autism

Thinking of the fact that when i was in 8th grade we got a new student in my class who was learning English and she is Chinese and my school thought it would be a good idea for me to teach this girl English even though i didn’t know a word of Chinese all because i was the quiet kid.

And also i know i cannot tell people how to grief, but when we live in a house with the three of us, it shouldn’t be a suprise to her we clean the house differently, we do things differently, while also maintaining our own individual lives.

Also like i get grief changes people because I’m also dealing with my moms grief still after a year but like she feels like she needs to do everything for me and my dad (older sibling mentality i guess) but when we are independent and doing our own thing it bothers her.

Also i made dinner tonight and she got mad because of the fact i didn’t use the strainer for noodles but the handle of the pot i used wasn’t stable so my dad had to tell her that and she said “god do i have to do everything” MA’AM

Btw this has been going on for a year too having an attitude and like i Geuinely don’t know what to do anymore about it. She also had an attitude with me in particular because my dad left the empty box of king cake on the counter and she thought it was me before my dad said anything.

I hate the fact that my sisters way of coping with our moms death is to yell at me and my dad when the house isn’t clean but when we ask her she’s like “i work 12 hour shifts” and like even on her off days she gets mad at the fact my dad said our house is a shared cleaning effort.

a person standing in a grassy field with the word defy on the bottom right ALT: a person standing in a grassy field with the word defy on the bottom right

I think my introduction to alternative culture/ scene wasn’t my chemical romance but watching criss Angel mind freak show when i was like 5. This show altered my brain somehow

Why does it make me feel old that i remember when Billie eillish was only in the “alternative” realm and not really known

Also it baffled me a bit because like they also knew it was public Instagram of mine after seeing the first couple of stories like the first three then when i posted more they kept going

Not going to lie, i do find it funny almost a year later that the bookstore that let me go after two weeks is still trying to find people to hire after they let me go and didn’t say why (this is also the same bookstore who was iffy on me taking the day off for my moms burial)

Sometimes i think of the fact a super conservative girl i went to high school with and was friendly with in high school one time had a problem with me for being bi and think about how it’s weird for us to hang out during the pandemic at a park because she wanted me to buy her plan b

I think it’s interesting my mom died on All Saints’ Day and day of the dead! Legendary for that. (Not legendary for dying though)

She ranted to my dad and me that I never do anything for her (i got her groceries yesterday on my way home yesterday) and now I’m back to square one of my sister and i fighting.

I also have an employee discount off things that my family can use. My sister got mad at me because the amount of stuff she wanted me to get it would be overdrawn my bank account and she couldn’t pay me right away. I said no to getting her groceries and left work.

My aunt and uncle : why do we keep getting covid?
Also them : them believing the vaccine is strictly miss information and is politically motivated
Me : interesting *has not gotten covid once and is vaccinated*

Had to contact one of my college textbooks publishers yesterday because they only shipped out one of two books i ordered and they had a ticket made since i contact them and they said “he’s missing his book” and then they realized what my name was and corrected it to “she” like 😭 i don’t mind he

My dog will do it constantly and he has long nails. The pain

Me : my house doesn’t look 90’s at all.
My house : has carpet in all the bathrooms besides the utility room bathroom and has fake fruit/ vines on top of the cabinets.
Me : goddamnit i do live in the 90’s

Most people : oh my gay awakening was *insert cartoon character*
Me : *the fame era lady Gaga*

One thing that will always confuse me is the culture around excessively partying and drinking in college. I feel like i see the harder/ more education based majors are always partying and drinking. My question is how do you have time to drink? I think drinking every once in a while is fine. weekly??

Also the fact they are aware too AI hurts the art/ music industry is what also gets me too.

Like the songs would actually be good alternative and screamo songs if they were written by instruments and on your own. They don’t sound original or organic using AI. I’m not trying to be a hater to this person because they have been through so much shit in the past year. But i cannot stand AI.