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i forgot drawing is a thing that can calm you down.. i do it in all states so i forgot it's a thing people use for therapy.. does help sometimes i think. i dont do it for that purpose, usually is more like i gotta draw rn even if freaking out

like it's so much easier to draw when just drawing any random thing not researched things so if wanting a lot of quick drawings just drawing at random. which is not as satisfying to me as stuff i actually like but it's the stuff that actually gets made bc it's easier

im done sorting pterosaurs and ginkgo leaves now i should be able to put them together but kind of want to do something else. or i kinda want to look up other kinds of leaves bc really not a complete enough record for ginkgo in all times and locations. gon shelve that tho there is enuf to go off of

-hyperfixation.. or but anyway i wonder if it's satisfied the urge in research so dont have that drive for the art part anymore. this is written so messy i'm kind of doing train of thought figuring out in real time this thing

-to say i like the research part bc it feels like a time waster to me. so i dont like it. but how is it different than wasting time looking up tiny facts for fandom stuff etc. same mechanism. idk. so yeah i think a part is.. or also bc ive moved interests while spending time researching..lost the-

-research kind of way is-, well a lot of energy put towards that but i have to acknowledge i do like the research part of it, to some degree? like that's the satisfying part of it, maybe. not the drawing part. tho i would like for the drawing part to happen make use of it. i think it's hard for me-

realizing i think one of the reasons i dont draw a lot of things im actually interested in is aside from well for fandom anxiety and difficulty drawing humans etc and everything i actually need to think about requires more energy, or jumping off that it's- the stuff i get obsessed with in a-

also reading through i guess you can misinterpret fossils or it's not always easy to tell or some research is older etc but i mean just not. whatever that pterosaur guy is doing

oh neat theyre on bsky. hope they dont see my comments lol

okay yeah this is fairly easy to fact check, if it looks like the fossil then yeah. don't think there's much room for misinterpretation

Too many Ginkgo leaves!!! The morphological diversity of Ginkgoales leaves!!! Hi all, This is just a super quick post* basically for me to show off a diagram I've bee...

thank you to this site, very helpful palaeoflora.blogspot.com/2023/10/too-... (i hope this is a reputable site i have no idea anymore bc of that guy who makes things up about pterosaurs)

fell asleep organizing ginkgo leaves, woke up to this

This is why we fund scientists to study things like oyster slobber even if you don’t think it sounds important

“Dragging a ladder through long rows of bookshelves can be exhausting. It’s much more efficient to have a co-worker who’s able to reach the top shelves on their own or at least give you a boost climbing up.”

#miragaia #stegosaur #dinosaur #paleoart #library #librarian #books

also something about grumpy independent misanthrope being shown how much they rely on other people. the sprouts, but also the hospitals, the power grid, the phones, the mail, least of all her one person

maybe not at e2 since, well i didn't. but at e3 ending it is very weird and suspicious

bc them being a servant race is very likely imo. dunno if i would've thought of that. but they did remind me of dr who aliens so maybe?? sometimes i don't bother speculating for shows either tho. but this one invites you to think about it so hm

while i like being in fandom while show is going i kinda wonder what my own theories would be if i watched without seeing other speculations

brain isnt usually bad in this way (usually in other ways) but right now everything looks too hyperrealistic idfk freakin me out a little. prolly need to sleep

it could be that it's 5 am or maybe i'm anxious but brain is feeling woozy. yeah probably should sleep oops

most spoiled child ever tho. wreck your brain

i mean i think that's old enough to know that's weird tho. idk if she watches cartoons. i think you know what's weird at 8 tho

also re: the 8 yr old... do they even understand? if you're young enough and grow up with that's all you ever knew...

also being the last hater on earth is objectively a funny position to be in. like damnit i barely tolerate any of you or anything now i have to save it?? classic

i feel like hiveminds are just usually 1 ep of a thing.. idk it is interesting tho. i feel like a lot must've been discussed on the topic before. maybe just in discussion if not on shows

also all the other comparisons you can make w the story. to covid, ai. etc. seen these discussions too, all make a lot of sense. there's a lot of things you can talk about with it. is this the first big show that's focused on hivemind ethics and stuff?? i feel like there must be others

-that's the case tho. with all the other pov moments he's written for minor characters etc... i mean already yeah exploring americanness, individualism, etc... and does give more umph to the slavery aspects to have it from a white person pov. yes uncomfortable but that's the point

-would be an interesting pov character in this scenario. like really could follow anyone. so the choice of character is like. the lens for what they want to talk about with this world. or well, maybe wouldve just been default white guy bc that's what he knows. maybe didnt think abt other pov. doubt-

also is such a karen lol but i like that as a pov to follow. it's a funny idea? like got your problematic white guys in breaking bad. problematic white woman equivalent is a karen. tho may not go in direction of bad guy walt. saul wasn't. and skyler wasnt lol if bringin up women. tho also anybody-

also rhea's doing a great job, i'm like not seeing kim wexler at all. other than them both being kinda not the positive kind of person. but theyre still different even there. kim being stoic, carol being a hater. idk if it's make up or my own face blindness but she just looks different too