Selnica

Oh and this was the street name I noticed as it was dawning on me where I was about to arrive. This whole fucking day is mocking me. Hollywood couldn't write this crap without being called hacks.

11.03.2025 20:19 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Day not stopping for shit. Was in waiting room trying to buy an app for the sake of distracting myself from the flood of memories. Realise Play store doesn't have my new card. Try to enter it, and what the fuck do I find myself staring at? My dead father's last address. No clue why Google had that.

11.03.2025 20:14 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

This is the hospital where my mom died. This is the place where everything hit rock bottom. I learn of another death in a friggin conga line spanning years on the day an appointment takes me back here?!? What the actual fuck!

11.03.2025 17:59 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

What the fuck. What the actual godsdamned fuck. What kind of hell is this day? I learn the death of someone important to me just before the appointment at an hospital, and then this?!?

11.03.2025 17:57 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Gotta love it. Getting dressed for an appointment when I get a call from Germany. Had some hopes on who it might be. Instead, I learned of another death in the almost-exhausted list of people I consider direct family.

Thought I was done with this shit. Thought I could finally start recovering...

11.03.2025 16:04 — 👍 1    🔁 0    💬 4    📌 0

probably shoulda tagged in first post, but that's @th4tgamerchick.bsky.social on the other end of that lovely conversation.

02.02.2025 17:09 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Gremlin energy convo this morning. Gotta love it.

02.02.2025 17:06 — 👍 3    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 1

Love my neurodivergent brain sometimes. Here I am, hungry and can't think of something I want to eat, and I can believe myself.

B*tch, we just finished putting away the biggest grocery we've done in months! THE F*CK YOU MEAN "NOTHING SOUNDS GOOD"?!

Anyway, gonna feed myself by force if I have to.

10.01.2025 05:24 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Saw this and had a realisation. I often use spellslots instead of spoons as a term. RPG lovers will know what I mean.

So what is the equivalent to knives in that analogy?

Blood magic. Casting from health instead of MP or Spellslots.

Makes you think about what we do to ourselves, doesn't it?

10.12.2024 06:08 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Rewarding myself with Lego flowers has been a pattern. Bonus pics of the full bouquet I have so far. Cherry blossoms, daffodils, sunflowers, and now roses.

11.07.2024 23:26 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Electrolysis yesterday and Doc appointment today, some good progress overall. Decided to reward myself with Lego flowers. Roses, this time.

11.07.2024 23:19 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Welp. My brain is officially DnD rotted. Saw this in my freezer and my immediate thoughts were that this would be an awesome dungeon playset for an ice cave pathfinder dungeon and that this needs minis in it.

07.07.2024 22:56 — 👍 8    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

Thought of the day, from a discord meme discussion:

An open tab in a browser is a line of thought you aren't done with.

Yes, Neurodivergent folks often have 200+ tabs open. Welcome to the neurodivergence.

24.01.2024 01:42 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

And yes after I was done crossing and it sinked in that I almost got hit, I checked the lights again. That van burned a red, on streets full of slush and thus slippery, at a crossing point. Yikes.

16.01.2024 19:49 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

Well that just happened. Came out of the healthcare service center. Cross the street cuz the walk sign is on. A delivery van zooms right in front of me close enough I could have reached out and touched it. And like a blithe fool I just finished crossing once it was past.

Am I a doe or something?

16.01.2024 19:46 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 1    📌 0

A day or two late, but I keep coming back to look at these, so I'm posting them here as a reminder to myself for whenever I need it: yes, I can be cute sometimes.

13.01.2024 11:37 — 👍 0    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0

transition stories in 12 words or fewer

First learned to survive, pretend.
Then to mourn.
Now learning to live.

08.01.2024 23:55 — 👍 16    🔁 0    💬 0    📌 0