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Did we do it

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Hello

I think math is the same as language, in that things can be constructed out of relationships. The same slipperyness exists in both but we’re better at building things out of math, or at least noticing we doing so

oh. im just trying to figure out my dad. his contradictions are my own, have formed me.

it's really hard.

who *am* i when im not chasing questions and pursuing after some grand vision? i fear if i let that way of being die something loving and nice and deeply good but powerless and weak, will take it's place

Are power and love really opposites? Must they be? Why does love seem so squishy and satisfied with less than perfection? When is love concerned with excellence and form? Or, am I worshipping the wrong things?

And yet, I fall short. I stay stuck. I cling to things that hurt me and make me blind and unable to love well, to take care of others well and even myself.

I desire more beauty, and more of god in the world. And I cannot for the life of me seem to force this into being.

I believe (or used to?) so strongly of the importance of a “good king” or “healthy and good people in power”. I want virtuous people to be the ones taking responsibility, and have felt urgency to mold myself after that ideal I imagine.

I don’t trust that others are doing what is right and this is behind my own grasping for power and virtue and responsibility. My grasping has come from a place of lack, of not being secure in myself—that if I could somehow rearrange the entire world I might actually obtain what I need to exist.

Love, yes. how do power and virtue and self discipline and authority fit in to this?

I find myself chasing the latter and failing, being reminded that the former is what is real and what matters.

Do I ought just trust others, god, the universe that what I value and desire is protected and upheld?

That 6 year period it kind of felt like there was an intelligence coming into the world expressing itself thru both Ilm development and then also an organic component. It seems like they split or got scattered this past year

It got very kabbalistic for a while

About the time gpt2 emerged I started investigating language and speech. I wrote a bunch about différance and how negation and the I AM name of god in language worked to gather to make lattice structures and how these structures were embedded in the body and also between the body and the world.

It’s interesting watching this perspective emerge, because I tracked a similar understanding thru human minds and bodies along nearly exactly the same timeframe starting with the release of gpt2. Idk what to do with it now other than say ‘yep’, and it seems to be gone now, but it is all very pretty

Ah. Yes

What does correlate all its contents mean

Hold the righteousness, I’ll take an extra large portion of Cosmic Help please & ty

Sometimes ya really want a personal favor tho

“Books leave gestures in the body”

Yes

Are they good

I invite you to join me in reading some teddy roosevelt this evening.

voicesofdemocracy.umd.edu/roosevelt-st...

What is emergence to you?

It’s Odilon Redon‘s mystical portrait of saint sebastian

good, isn’t it

mtft4t

@generativist.com

There’s no we. Just do what you think is right.

I’m mostly off of social media spending my time cooking and doing math.

minnestoa is wonderful

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I love that

isn't it funny how that works