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Xenon Mugen no Shitai // C's Ware // PC-98

Xenon Mugen no Shitai // C's Ware // PC-98

next question: why am i even talking about it

the themes still land without it I Guess, and it's definitely a complicated scene and i'd understand a certain type of criticism of it, but it's also like... it's pretty important (to the film at least) to show how shittily the travelers are treated and the parallels being drawn as oppressed peoples

watched INTO THE WEST (1992) and only afterward in trying to describe something to anka did i realise they cut an entire scene from the version we watched. why...? i even pulled up the script to make sure. who on earth cared that much about an independent irish film to do such a thing

omg! did you see attend/see her there?! i feel so goofy because she's obviously been important for a lifetime but i've never been motivated to go MEET many famous people... but i should!

oh not performing anything from escaflowne huh. that's ok queen. hey remember this (dumps all my personal belongings onto table)

yoko kanno will be in my state in april for a concert/panel/signings... i am being given a once in a lifetime opportunity to be so unbearably annoying

my man

cassette and label are both black with styled white text font: tir na nog gargoyle games (on either side of the top of the cassette label is an outward facing illustration of a demon gargoyle).

tir na nog, cassette, zx spectrum (1984) www.mobygames.com/game/14628/t...

folken from escaflowne surprised

folken from escaflowne deeply affected, concerned, heartbroken, etc. in the actual animation the light flickers over his glassy eyes

wet eyed cat

identical

mine told me the same thiiiing 😭 like you try to be both open and inviting for discussion and hearing how you might've done wrong while also being steadfast in that as a general practised value, and it turns out other people like to benefit from your kindness/willingness, but nothing "challenging"

obviously i've turned it over in my head more and less abstractly for a long time, but i also made it go dormant... usually stories are how i navigate that which can't be any other way but stories just aren't cutting it for me rn. which is too bad since i have to make some freakin monkey 🤑 already!

i know it's unhealthy but now that i've been given names and now that i wrote up a long chronology of injustices to the best of my ability, all i want to do is stare into the black hole of it. nothing else matters as much to me. it doesn't feel good for that to be true but i can't make it stop yet.

Viper F40 // Sogna // PC-98

Viper F40 // Sogna // PC-98

i forgot to add this one to the Escaflowne thread... just another short response piece about why it stands the test of time
folcanta.tumblr.com/post/8033558...

(contains spoilers)
this Escaflowne piece touches on similar stuff but is a much more concise. also the URL is correct
folcanta.tumblr.com/post/8039304...

really bad in here... really bad

Ryōki no Ori // Plantech // PC-98

Ryōki no Ori // Plantech // PC-98

Doki Doki Pretty League 4 // Great // PC-98

Doki Doki Pretty League 4 // Great // PC-98

it has been good to just be a person among people (and in a setting that has nothing to do with art.) if i can find a better program i'd like to try it, even just for more exposure to that alone

however... i have decided to leave the hospital u_u they told me they can't help me and it's very verrrrry boring

i can't rewatch escaflowne while going thru crisis, because it'll give me another one. so someone's going to have to enjoy it on my behalf

going scorched earth in 2026: no reboots no remakes no prequels no sequels no franchises no retellings no nostalgia NO COWARDICE, THE LIGHT IS DYING, NOW IS THE TIME TO MAKE SOMETHING NEW

a bearded hooded wizard(?) is standing in the middle of the screen. two tarot cards, one either side, one upturned, one downturned, are displayed. the upturned card is the 'priestess' card. text: what above all other things do you think is the greatest crime against your fellow man?

ogre battle, character generation, snes (1995) www.mobygames.com/game/7569/og...

so much has happened in the span of what, 5 days? and also nothing has happened. THAT'S HOW IT IS...

(just got done with therapy lol sowwy. it sucked) like i can think "yeah true, a child doesn't deserve that" but it happened anyway? no one saw it and no one cared and i didn't die and there's no evidence, so in every respect it has about as much material significance as relaying a dream.

what is accepting trauma As trauma supposed to do... throughout childhood, whenever something shitty happened there were zero consequences to the perpetrator. consequence was felt by me, in my head. no comeuppance no tools no witnesses no records. i skipped straight to "yeah? okay? and so what?"

Blood Seed // Great // PC-98

Blood Seed // Great // PC-98

普段甘えてこない子が、寝ぼけてて子供だった頃みたいに甘えて恥ずかしくなっちゃうヤツ

LOL i'm just deducing from the evidence we have, your honour!!! can't see red on a light bg...