pav (they/them)(audhd)

i love it when i pick my book up to find out i gave up (gave in to sleep) one page before the end of the chapter. every time.

stardust express, October '25 on independent artist-run spaces, the use of anatomy in dancing, past, present, future, and all that jazz

i’m supposed to be packing and leaving. yet here i am, typing away. someone hit me, please.

i don’t know what to tell you. working from home is hard, since laundry “doesn’t count”, you know? as labour. which means that i feel like i didn’t do anything as i’ve been doing laundry all day.

of all the things that are forbidden in sweden, that i can be blinded at night by a moped rushing down a cycle lane. in a park. is beyond me.

why are the EJECT DISK and the ERASE DISK options one above the other?! i cannot wait for the moment i erase my whole archive because i can’t tell letters apart from each other. the ERASE DISk could at the very least be featured in red with a DANGER emoji attached.

reading the final chapters of Oryx & Crake i DEFINITELY recommend reading The Year Of The Flood first. wowza, maggie!!! wowza

whenever i journal i play this game, i write whatever i think intuitively is today’s date before checking. i was so confident today was OCT 10. #adhd #timeblindness

when the show becomes too intense so you reach for some scrap yarn to self-regulate

in a description for another class, catered to humans and their non-human companions, i wrote “bring your furry friend!” one person who attended the class told me they thought the whole “bring your dog along” thing was “a joke”.

in the description for a class i taught a while back i wrote “if you have someone under your care, bring them along! parents and children, for example, are more than welcome!” one person who attended the class, a young mother, told me they understood the prompt but assumed i was “just being kind”.

hey,

i’m so sorry i didn’t see your message before today. i forgot about this app… my mistake. thanks for asking the question. one person who attended the class told me they read the description and thought the whole “bring your dog along” was a joke 😂

it wasn’t, of course. dogs are the best!

essential combination
worker gloves and beige ballet shoes with a jazz heel that your 95 years old ballet teacher wore when you were six years old, too young for a 180 degree turnout

the joy of long form

when on page 179 the tiniest hint of resistance to whatever *that* is is revealed in a person, a character (paired with a hint of denial) and your (the reader’s) mind goes, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON HERE?!?!

PS this is about physical attraction and the like, not murder or anything illegal like that.”

Note that even in the privacy of my own journal I am scared of, in my own words, going to jail.

What should I do about that? Should I write things down anyway? Should I admit to myself and my future and past selves that I see them and are taking account of them, my thoughts, OR are we allowed such privacy, even from our own observing selves? >>>

Three years since my therapist started teaching me how to journal, recorded last week.

“I still have a fear of recording my own thoughts exactly as they come to me. I find them too revealing of where my focus is or of what I am attracted to, even if it’s just going to be me reading. Blah. >>>

in thick eastern european accent, via zoom (on a laptop) (on the tube) “we can’t give you what you want unless you speak exactly what you want and you are not speaking”

what’s in a review, trying new formats out. how annoying is it to read small print on instagram?

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at 36

a friend needed to get rid of crabs, no problem. i went in, bought the cream. then i needed to get rid of crabs. i felt SO VISIBLE buying that same cream at that same place.

mum said you break taboos but always according to law #adhd #autism

love #adhd slept for a luxurious half a couple of hours last night also rachel dratch playing everyone on 30 rock, role model material

if the world makes it, we will have another call out next year. i would love to study your practice in this context!!! that said, there was a moment last week i was fully convinced it was november. so, i feel you!

99 motivation letters. 17 hours, 53 minutes, and 3 seconds. now lunch. and a nap celebrating artists researchers and their labour!

good morning to culture workers you got this

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reading contribution offers to LACE Symposium, what an honour to witness so much critical work being done around the world. #hope is back on the menu, deep gratitude to artists, educators, activists, somatic practitioners on this day

stardust express, February '25 All Hail Queer Resistance

yesterday i spiralled thinking about social media, today i spent 45 minutes posting across all platforms

#adhd is not cute, anything but cute

i just paid 44sek for a bryggkaffe

Frequently Asked Questions this collection was last updated on 2025-02-04

the best idea i ever had this week? was to write up Frequently Asked Questions and answer them all… once. #babysteps #opencall

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