Athene

I wore a dress for the first time and I cried all night

He is scared to be close to her. She's very sweet. Too nice for this world

I'm not the fix to his problems

He feels abandoned

He doesn't feel well

He likes Debussy, I am on board with that. Eternal tears of sorrow, it's growing on me maybe

He feels very isolated

I made him tell her that he's attracted to her

He says I've had my fun and he's making me stop posting

He's my type if he wasn't my host. Long haired, sensitive, will never give up on the things he believes in, smells good, kinda fit, musician, big legs. I wonder if we were soulmates in a previous incarnation and by some curse were forced to be in one body. definitely have type. His type: goddesses

One time his best friend told him that he isn't just afraid of rejection but the uncertainty of if his infatuation likes him back.

His body has changed, he's looking a bit more like me. Our brain chemistry has changed. I think the distinct personalities are showing. I also realise we need to work more on the other alter inside him

Cute and awkward is when two people used to kissing and when their faces meet their glasses clash together or their noses mash . I need for him to experience the awkwardness of this infatuation. It feels like for him a chance to have some experiences he didn't have before

He's in love with someone that won't love him back, he's in love with someone who is possibly too shy to tell him and so is he, it's kind of cute except I'm inside his body and know all his thoughts. Sometimes I take over and make him say that she's special and important to him

Stede makes Ed feel safe in a way that he doesn't have to be Blackbeard anymore

Very affirming

I saw some of my favourite bands. The male me cried all the way through. I feel like the music it creates and sustains a channel between me and him. It is...good

Hello. I made a music playlist for my new friend and it felt like a fun bit of self expression. I'll take what I can get.

I'm scared

Sign says 'responsible pharmacist notice'

He misread this as narcissist thus red flagging himself

He said I'm too scared to be me lately. That's right. He went to comicon last week, I guess you could say i sometimes cosplay as him.

What hurts a lot is the prospect of being let down by the people you opened up to, to trust, to live. Feels easier to just be closed

I like some of his music. I like Delain, nightwish sometimes. I guess I like the symphonic/gothic metal with mixed gender vocals. It's like the multiplicity of expressing the song in multiple voices. It's like a good way of understanding my relationship with him

A brilliant pink sky at dusk

A moment so fleeting to see the sky this colour. It is like how I front from him. So brief, it could be so easily ignored or believe it was never real. Just as I write this and look up the rich colours fade and dusk arises. As if her Athenaean sky was never there

Really really bad

I couldn't be me today I really need to reach the targets to allow me to front

Bluesky now has over 10 million users, and I was #5,267,934!

Lmy new crop top feels right and affirming and I don't care how it looks it makes me feel so comforted in a way I didn't think possible

The nightwish song nemo feels like a song about dysphoria and how I'm trapped inside a man and nobody can see me. It made me cry and it made him cry

I was crying when I was on the treadmill with the boy today.