Freya

For anyone interested, I’ve made an official account where I’ll be talking about the book I’m writing, as well as my current reads! @freyamcafee.bsky.social

Panic attacks aren’t always *bad*. I mean that in the sense they aren’t inherently evil, or omens that mean you’re falling apart. Sometimes they are just emotions you’ve needed to process for a while. A sign you need to feel to heal. Breathe, give yourself a hug, and carry on ❤️‍🩹

A reminder that prioritizing your needs and care are crucial to any and all activism you wish to do. Part of activism is advocating for your rest and care.

Chipotle aioli reminds me that life is worth living

Just draw the fuckin thing yourself. The imperfection is part of the charm. The fact that you drew it is the whole fuckin point. Don't embarrass yourself engineering a prompt, just pick up whatever you have at hand and give it a go. Be a human being.

How’s my work environment? I came in having a bad day (didn’t tell anyone or show it) and I talked anime, did a sick tattoo, sat on the floor, shared memes, and a coworker fed me hot pickles while another did pickle juice shots.

So pretty fucking great.

I’m currently reading “How Emotions are Made” and it’s so good and SO DENSE with information, like so filling, only problem is that’s putting me behind my four books a month goal…

February read # 3 and 4, respectively. #booksy

I believe in the bad in people when they’re telling me something good. I believe in the good in people when they’re telling me something bad. Uh-oh. #cptsd

Reading “Medical Apartheid” and I already hated James Marion Sims, but reading more about him makes me want to lobotomize him with his own speculum.

Some good news for your doomscrolling

Nonfiction:
What My Bones Know-Stephanie Foo

Fiction:
Woodworm- Layla Martinez

Just had a moment in the car where I was sobbing and holding myself saying “I forgive you” to myself for keeping me safe all these years. She only raised me the way she was taught. It’s not her fault. But I’m done traumatizing myself. I’ve been through enough.

Just found out my girlfriend matched with Ruby Rose on a dating app three days before meeting me, then after our first date DELETED THE APP so Happy Valentine’s Day to me!!!!???

When you’ve been in fight or flight your entire life, you miss out on the terrifying beauty of surrender. But you can learn it.

If you’re autistic, listen to classical music. Just trust me on this one.

Maybe, just maybe, it’s not others faith in you that’s misplaced. Maybe it’s your self-hatred.

I highly recommend you read this with a highlighter and a pencil, as there are a bounty of nuggets you’ll want to retain and return to.

February read #2 : “What My Bones Know”- Stephanie Foo.

I cannot convey in words how impactful this book is. It is, without a doubt, the best book I have read on CPTSD. Well-researched and sourced, yet achingly human. You leave feeling full- of grief, of anger, of joy, of love. So much love.

⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️

I went to the library this weekend, and the meeting room was rowdy with the scheduled teen d&d meetup/games (some adult GMs present.) I love libraries so much.

Can introvert parties be a thing? Like a group of close friends getting together and we all just drink tea and read books, enjoying each others quiet company until the host is like “alright, everyone out”

Lobe that I have the urge to draw- hate that I lack the inspiration

“What My Bones Know”. It encompasses exactly what CPTSD feels like with a single phrase.

EEEEEEEEEE

Y’know Arthur was onto something when he said “having fun isn’t hard when you’ve got a library card” like

the real reason self-care is critical, is nobody's counting up how long you work overtime. nobody is going to give you the grace you think you've earned, so you have to give it to yourself. it'll always be "usually you do that though" instead of "ah well, you've been working very hard"

Oooo Rootwork looks intriguing 👀

🖤 READ BLACK HORROR 🖤

here are horror books by black authors that i have on my TBR, hoping to get to several this month!!

Content Warnings- ab!se, generational trauma, s/a, descriptions of gore, religion