Ray

rotating shapes in my head rn

rip sisyphus you would have loved escalators

A red bowl filled with jambalaya topped with fresh green onion.

A little jambalaya moment from several months ago since it’s relevant. Legitimately Cajun recipe. No okra. I’ve made small tweaks (like thinner sliced chicken) and made better jambalaya since, but this was the last time I took a photo

I’d like to add that nobody in either of our families is remotely from the Deep South. Neither of us is inherently more knowledgeable than the other on this, but I do thorough research before attempting to make a dish from a different culture lol

MIL told me a couple days ago that it’s “not authentic jambalaya” if it doesn’t have okra in it. I’m by no means an expert on Cajun and Creole cuisine, but I have never heard something so incorrect in my life. Had to google it to make sure I wasn’t crazy. Biting my tongue is hard y’all 😔

Reading it back really made me hurt for teenage Ray. I wish he could see me now. The people in my life came around and now I have unconditional support from my family, a truly wonderful fiancée, and a handful of friends I wouldn’t trade for the world. It gets better. I promise ❤️

Found an old anonymous tumblr from when I was 16 where I basically vented about struggling with my gender identity and not having any support in my personal life and begging someone to tell me that what I was feeling was OK and there wasn’t something wrong with me. It got no notes. How depressing :/

DATE: So what’s your favourite animal?

ME: [forgetting the word ‘anteater’] The one that eats ants

A small grey-and-white cat sits at the foot of a bed. The look on his face shows that he is irritated at best by the actions around him. His catnip banana is mostly out of frame to the left, abandoned in his disgust. He appears to be plotting my murder.

I sneezed and he looked upon me with such disgust

Trying to post on bluesky more because fb is my guilty pleasure (there is a 55 year old man living in my soul) and I need to put in the work to improve my algorithm so I actually want to use this app 😭

What do you mean it’s so hot the corn in the fields might start spontaneously popping? What the hell???

@ the train that’s been laying on the horn for the past minute and a half: stop it ☹️

They’re RMS Titanic and Doctor Who for anyone wondering. I know way too much about both of these. Why couldn’t it have been something useful like computers 😭

My favorite part of being autistic is that I did not get to choose my special interests. They just sort of happened and now my brain goes “!!!!!! Give me more!!!!” whether I want it to or not

when I was a kid eggs were so cheap you could eat five dozen and grow to roughly the size of a barge

Obviously I do lol

For a smidge of context my grandmother is extremely bigoted and also very narcissistic, and she’s been verbally and physically abusive to myself and multiple family members whom I love dearly. There’s a LOT more to unpack, but that’s the gist of it lol

Got stopped by a couple Mormon missionaries and gave them my grandmother’s phone number (who I’m no-contact with) because they wouldn’t leave without info and I didn’t want to give them my number. Am I a bad person or is this actually really funny?

It’s also surprisingly my first drag show. I hope that Queer Ray’s enjoyment outweighs Autistic Ray’s fear of social situations lol

Going to a drag brunch tomorrow where there’s no cover but you bring a breakfast food or dessert. Y’all know I’ve got my brownies locked and loaded

I’m 6 years on T today which is pretty neat! I’d probably pass more if I grew out my facial hair but it’s in all the wrong places lol

If neckbeards ever become sexy though I’m so back

Anyway here’s some generic chicken and rice with a stir fry sauce I made a few days ago. First time I didn’t rlly follow a recipe and the food was actually good

Damn near 4am and I can’t sleep due to ✨looming existential dread✨

I’m sure I’ll make it thru the next 4 years but I’m also not THAT sure and that’s spooking me rn

transgender is like crab rangoon