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i hear you. in context, the insult was well-deserved, represented the silent majority opinion and the clearing of a specific resentment that’s built under the surface for longer than i’ve lived in pgh. conflict is a gift. i loved reading all that, i felt high

finally listening to wagharfg phalloplasty episode. still proud of my metoidioplasty episode but it's clear now that even when you consider that mine features a live reveal of the glass jar containing my uterus, i have been upstaged

wait ok so the twitter alternative is “better” bc there’s no way to go private? that’s so gay what is wrong w you people

anyway taking applications ....R U strong enough 2 b my handler ?

in the past 3 years i've had v cool romances, romantic friendships, fwb w power dynamics, solitude. but i have not had that, + what i've learned is: the process of establishing that has to be slow + careful + a two-way street + by the time u achieve it, itll prob just look like regular love

my hill to die on is that gay marriage was a mistake but where i'm at with couple-form is that when @rencerebral.bsky.social or maybe their cohost asked "what do you desire most of all, without anyone else's feelings in mind?" i thought: BDSM with someone i wake up with

tempted to re-coin my own term "100 boyfriends relationship model" in a way that's more honoring of my / everyone's bisexuality but 1. brontez purnell's book is too good and invoking it rolls off the tongue 2. its 5784 whom care and 3. my commitment to the lifestyle is not long for this world i fear

don't quite understand this site yet, going to be a little cryptic with it. i could do something like admit that last week i told a date i have "autism sun, autism rising, OCD moon" and it went over well but why would i admit such a thing

...of absent others. We cannot see each other plain. A horrible kind of predestination hovers over each new attachment we form." 'Only connect,' E.M. Forster proposed. 'Only we can't,' the psychoanalyst knows."

--janet malcolm, psychoanalysis: the impossible profession (1981)

"Even (or especially) romantic love is fundamentally solitary, and has at its core a profound impersonality. The concept of transference at once destroys faith in personal relations and explains why they are tragic: we cannot know each other. We must grope around each other through a dense thicket..