Ren Cerebral

My heart is broken in a way that I can barely recognize

So much of the success of social division campaigns depends upon the mass forgetting that is made possible by influxes of new people to a group or area and the general lack of discipline around story-telling and enabling curiosity and humility

I'll just be having a regular night and then suddenly out of nowhere I get the idea in my head that I need to buy a vintage Furby. Has that ever happened to you?

do you want to come to my conflict practice space? I'm doing them once a month!

oh. I'm three weeks into low dose testosterone btw 👀

How do we honor the legacy of our beloveds taken from us too soon? How can we make space for slowness in our processes without letting the world forget in the midst of capitalist urgency? I don't know the answers but I'm trying

Listening to records I acquired from a queer extended family member who died from cancer recently while meditating on the fresh grief of unexpectedly losing my most profound CripQueer mentor and cherished friend just last week. Every time I look at my hands, I am reminded and my heart breaks again 💔

I keep having dreams about drinking large glasses of cows milk and I have no idea what it means

the amount of community conflicts which can be traced back to cisgender men's unchecked power feeling threatened is absurd and heartbreaking. map out the timelines, babes! and when you do, you might feel as stupid and duped as I've felt for the last couple weeks. but you'll be better off for knowing

something I Love about wearing a ventilator at night is that when I first put my mask on, it always faintly smells like the night before. so when I get home from being somewhere nice, I'm taken back to the comfort of the prior night's experience 🥰

"better a faggot than a fascist" surrounded by pansies and the pink triangle

Covid is a mass disabling event

@luciddreamrr.bsky.social are you and me the opposite of this

I totally just meant that you like hot dogs 😂 which I guess these aren't technically but they are like smaller hot dogs

This is one of my to many duties in this life. The name Ren Cerebral is an anagram of both of my grandfathers names & when I use it, I think about my lineage & trying to aspire to a more divine masculinity than they could ever achieve while laughing in the face of the patriarchy which wounds us all.

My father is better than most but like most men, he still carries aspirations of the patriarchy in his bones. And so I think it's funny that me being his freak deviant child strikes such a resemblance while acting a force of pure destruction to the remaining aspects of patriarchy he buys into.

The crazy thing about looking at mirrors is sometimes you see your father looking back at you

@jettrouble.bsky.social your time is now

happy birthday!!! you make the world a cooler place! I hope you're celebrated and surrounded by Love today 🥰

The failure of a body to function is not a small thing. It isn't our fault. Being a cyborg can only get you so far when the infrastructure of your society is crumbling around you. I hope more of us can begin to honor this reality while disabled people continue to drop like flies in the coming years.

I'm sharing this because sometimes I think that non-disabled people (including leftists) enjoy flattening their perception of what disability is so that they can dictate to others how they should be showing up in community. We are so often pitted against one another.

The only other option I'm given than the ones I've attempted are to "call 911" as the phone service suggests. I am not going to call emergency services when all I need is tubing and a silicone mask! Paramedics or cops cannot solve that fucking problem!

I used to have a respiratory therapist come to my home every other month with supplies in hand and the ability to order new ones for expedited shipment on the spot. Now I get a phone call and if I miss the call or need anything unprompted, I have to go through a robot who decides how important it is

My life quite literally depends on my ability to continue accessing my ventilator and being able to avoid respiratory illness. My vent supplies have been slowly degrading for the last several months and my homecare company has now fully automated their communication systems due to budget cuts.

Have you listened yet?

I thought this was an Onion article

You already know the answer 😘

last year I used TDOV as an excuse to fasten the pace of the slowest burn of goddamn my life and took (what at the time felt like a risk) of explicitly hitting on my now-girlfriend, telling her that I saw her 👀 and thought she was hot 🔥 & my life has been one million percent better every day since ❤️‍🔥

SCOOP: ICE Revoking Students’ Immigration Statuses Without Their or the University’s Knowledge “Never seen something like this,” say university officials about the secret targeting of Middle Eastern students.

SCOOP: The Trump admin appears to be going into a visa database to quietly change students' immigration status. It's coming entirely by surprise — setting students up to be detained without warning.

It's Mahmoud Khalil & Rumeysa Ozturk — on a wider scale.