Roger, Cactus Wizard

I e been feeling so alone lately, but at least it gives me a lot of time for self reflection.

I could see myself riding one of those through a post apocalyptic wasteland.

This!

I also endorse this platform.

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I feel myself changing so much. I’m not really using social media to distract myself like I used to. I’m actually facing my issues head on, and I just need to figure out how to deal with them. Each day is a challenge, but as my grandpa said, you’ve got to get out of your comfort zone to grow.

It seems like nobody reads my posts here these days, so I’m just going to post some personal stuff here to help get those feelings out.

In an optimistic note, I‘ve been thinking about how my grandfather didn’t get his real estate license until he was 45 and he was able to achieve his dreams before he passed away. It goes to show that it’s never too late to reinvent yourself and achieve your dreams.

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I’ve been going through a lot of changes recently, and even though I’m 45 years old, I still feel like I’m figuring my life out. I guess getting on medication and getting into therapy has been transformative.
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When I was growing up, my parents kept a couple of hand made signs on their dining room wall as decoration. One said “Ask and ye shall receive.” and the other said “A rejected opportunity to give is a lost opportunity to receive.” I’ve been thinking about those a lot lately.

So I’ve been posting over on Instagram. I like that’s it’s helping me reconnect with some old friends. I don’t like that one of my old friends let the algorithm take him down the wrong rabbit hole too many times and now he’s no longer with us. I really feel conflicted about it.

Meanwhile my coffee cut off time is now updated to two hours before bed and I’ve been sleeping better than ever. ADHD indeed.

This is the kind of non-wrestling, non-music content that I come here for. That, and gardening.

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When it all comes crashing down.

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I am so thankful that my whole personality as a man is not "SPORTS! BBQ! MY WIFE AKA THE OL' BALL AND CHAIN! RACISM!"

The tighter you hold onto something, the faster is slips through your fingers. Sometimes, it’s best to just let go.

I miss Leva Bates. I wore my Librarians shirt just the other day.

That is so cool!!! Great work!

A cactus garden nestled between a chain link fence and a small picket fence. Included are an organ pipe cactus, several cholla, aloe vera, and several varieties of prickly pear.

Assorted garden tools and a wheelbarrow full of cholla cactus pieces in the alley next to the lavender picket fence containing a large cholla cactus.

Close up of cholla trimmings in my wheelbarrow.

Close up of cholla spines leftover in the wheelbarrow after the cactus trimmings were removed.

It was time to trim my beloved cholla! #LeavesIsPlants #CowboyShit 🤠🌱🌵

Sir, you clearly have good taste.

I’m not sure, but probably around three years. Fortunately, I’ve been able to sharpen them from time to time.

Rusty garden sheets with a couple of hand rakes in freshly cut grass with a pumpkin vine nearby.

Cutting the grass with garden sheers feels kind of silly, like giving the earth a haircut, but I really want to protect the pumpkin vine. #CowboyShit #LeavesIsPlants🎃 🤠🌱

That sounds wonderfu!

Wear shoes!?!? But then how will I know if I’ve stepped in dog poop?

We need to slowly start disengaging from this internet. Not completely but there's so much that we could do offline and we should move to do so

its funny because it’s true!

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