k. 🌧️ ❄️ 🪬

trying to find a spotify alternative is driving me insane.

deezer gave me the option to have 1 month free so i signed up only for it to give me a week free. i couldn’t listen to any music without going to premium which is what i had signed up for……..

trying to get into the dark romance.

i always have a lot of fun chilling w them o v o

took the smallest weed gummy slice. gonna hang out with two oomfs on vc and parallel play. i’m excited

i have smth i wanna say but idk how to express it

i miss feeling good mentally, emotionally and spiritually for a consecutive amount of time 🫩

brain fog these last few weeks have sucked

the way that this new medication has me feeling more paranoid then ever ontop of blurry vision. I am cooked with mental illness, chat

aint no way 💀

praying the cost won’t be too insane… and that i won’t get stuck with something that will kill my barely existing sex drive 🤞🏻

psychiatrist appointment tomorrow… hopefully will be prescribed a new medication that will help with these manic episodes

you should!! i hope that they can do that for you !

if you ever need to vent, i’m here for you. i hope you’re feeling better today 🫂

That’s insane that they won’t give you refunds???

hung out with my irl for her birthday and it was a good time until she dropped that she uses chat gpt for her problems…. honey, get a therapist if you need to talk to someone, i’ll give you a referral

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my therapist said that she’s going to help me work through this grief which i am grateful for. This has been in my mind for so long. it will be nice to talk it out and work through it

it’s all just so frustrating. I legit hate that they are there living off of her when she can’t even defend herself. The thing that gets me, is before her dementia started and worsened, she did want the one uncle back in her house. He literally took advantage of her illness for himself. dumb c

blood sugar spiked and she fell and had to be hospitalized, the hospital had reported them but they couldn’t find anything to help get her out, etc. :/

i also informed her about the shitty call out my uncle did via facebook. I also told her the shit all of my uncles have been doing while mooching off my grandma has dementia and she told me I should report it for elder abuse. Unfortunately I don’t think anything will happen because when her

i told her how helpful it was to have nicole and billy help me work through the manic lows just listening to me talk, or watching inuyasha and she-ra to keep me distracted

i had therapy and i was able to talk about these manic highs and lows which really helped.
i told her i am trying to get in earlier to my psychiatrist to try a new anti depressant so that i wont have to experience them as much/anymore.

my psychiatrist called when i was asleep and said if she has another canceled appointment she will call me back to see me and discuss a new anti depressant. 🤞🏻

seeing everything that’s happening in chicago makes me feel so fucking sick and angry

my moms family is the most annoying, garbage excuses to human beings

grateful that i have an appointment on the 16th but it would have been so nice to get in touch with her sooner like tomorrow @_@

i cannot take these manic depressive highs and lows anymore.

i absolutely know and hate this feeling for you. but just know that you are doing enough even if it doesn’t feel like it

guess who’s back, back again, shady’s back. tell a friend