Lulzy

Actually sculpting something!! And it’s Delphine so I guess this is a life size sculpt lmao

aw man im so sorry chicken...

My need to isolate to try and calm down my overwhelming everything and my want to interact with people is at fucking war and it just makes me feel so alone. I'm hoping when this funeral is over I can be normal but with my grandpa slowly deteriorating its gonna be hard.

Reaaally funny that bluesky only hit this with the adult label because you coloured in the boobs. great job bluesky 10/10

YAAA

thank you ghostt 🫂i'll be ok

I need to draw Kassidy...its been so long since I drew her properly. 3 months if we dont count the spooky icon...

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Thank you Mori 🫂

thanks lo 🫂

Ahh. Finally my grandma has peace. Glad I at least got to say goodbye yesterday.

In lighter news, after months i finally bought plastic glue to attach my TC minis to their stands. And now it'll be another few months before I get primer and paints to actually paint them. baby steps

Grandma took a turn for the worst last night. Probably wont make it till Christmas and my grandpa isnt far behind with the cancer.

aiiyyaahhhh...

aw no chicken im so sorry ;;

Really trying to just excise the part of my brain that feels the need to try and please everyone and throw it in an organ grinder. I have my own opinions I promise.

So I guess this is something. I dont seem to hate hearing my own voice anymore. So thats kinda nice. before I would cringe so bad when I heard... so yay?

Yippee! Sudden shots of anxiety that people secretly just tolerate me! Yay!

I knew it was a matter of time haha

Holding your hand

Something something I think it would be fun to play Sable as a tremere.

Because VtM:B 2 came out, I've been watching a playthrough of the first game and suddenly I'm watching lore vids. That's how it goes I guess.

laughs

amused by the thought my dark souls boss title would just be:

Lulzy, Ender of Conversations
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My dumb ass already forgot it was even turkey day weekend cuz I wanted to go grocery shopping and halfway through my drive I realized it would be CLOSED.

Probably the last turkey day I'll have with my grandpa too...man.

It's such a first world thing to complain about but this year for turkey day we didnt have a turkey and its like...my favourite meal of the year and I'm sad. LIKE I TOTALLY UNDERSTAND WHY NOT, family stuff is super busy right now. But man this year was nooot good

Turns out the scarier thing was the themes about isolation/ lonliness so bad you disappear and leave a mark on no one's life WHOOPS

:)))))

Me, alone in the house for the next few days: Wow this is a great time to reaalllyy get into 'No I'm Not Human'

Why friends live so far away?????????

Friend visit cure me. Cure me visiting friends. Man I already know 5-7 days isnt going to be enough... (last day barely counts thats when they leave)

Man sometimes I just feel like I'm not enough. Not doing enough. Not participating enough.

And I dont even know what 'enough' is.

Trying to punch away these stupid feelings, Im supposed to have my BEST week next week with friends.

Also I NEED to sit down and play silksong I dont wanna get spoiled on iiittt but my focus is being pulled in a million directions

So excited for friends finally visiting next week. Not looking forward to the empty void that's gonna be there when they leave WEEEEEEE