Lulzy

You know a lot of the time I do really worry if me saying something nice or just anything at all comes off as passive aggression. I've had people assume comments I've made are passive aggressive and ever since I get so worried hjdgf

absolutely

Maybe it's time for the villain era again

And the power is out for the 4th time this week. -Chimp grin-

I have so few “it’s fine”s left in me. One day I truly might just go apeshit (non violently)

I NEED to make my own comic a reality. Everyone is starting and making such amazing work and I wanna! Be in that space! I wanna share what I can do! I want to make something that's bigger than me at some point. Or just....be apart of a project. Or something. ANYTHING.

Need to keep telling myself its cool to do my own thing at my own pace but can't help but feel left in the dust. Like I know its not truuuue but my brain is bullying me. Can someone scoop it out and throw it at a wall for me?

Fear of Missing Out is at war with my turbo burnout lmaoooo I hate it here.

This is such a baby problem to have, but at my age is especially pathetic :)

I find half the reason I dont go out and do things is because I have to answer for it later. "where'd you go?""what'd you do?""who did you spend time with?" I would kill to just...go out, come home and not have to tell anyone I did something.

I genuinely think moving out would cure me. It would be scary but it would cure me. But with everything going on in my family just proves I Cannot Fucking Do That cuz I need to be around to help. (besides financial being an issue)

sighs

Finally caved and just watched a Silksong playthrough..... yeah i dont think i wouldve had the patience holy shit. 10/10

Masking is so tiring but I feel like if I just said what I wanted to say I'd be insufferable. Like even in my own thoughts I'll catch myself being awful.

I dunno, I just have so few 'it's fine' left in me man.

Big 'I feel like an NPC in life' hours.

some bits of wisdom from tunglr

Im keeping the everything vague because if I start listing it all off Im never gonna stop but god daaamn

The dread of current events is so real. Like it feels like some sick joke but with every passing day I'm taking more incremental damage as its slowly becoming more apparent that the possibility is not off the table. And I don't even live in the US.

I was talking with a friend the other day and I had spoken aloud that I really don't talk about myself to the point that even my best friends don't really KNOW me and that just made me profoundly sad. Why do I feel such fear of being known? Sighs. Maybe something to work on this year.

Yeah!! Exactly!!

old now

Old in two days uughh

Yes yes please do

Ye ye, feel free to explode my dms when you play it (or watch a playthrough)

YEAH both are REALLY GOOD. But I am giving you a BIG disclaimer. Look Outside WILL set of like... food eating and squelching sound misphonia. its worth it to push through it tho

Is it a coincidence I get quietly obsessed over two indie games about not looking/going outside and theres a Visitor(s) involved?

Yah probably.

Like theyre really creative and the game as a whole does eldritch horror REALLY well even if the whole thing is more quirky than scary. The visuals and the music are such bangers and the writing is fun (and when the game wants to be scary it can be) 10/10 great body horror

I'm usually pretty picky about eldritch horror design and I'm not impressed when it's "oh this person has an extra mouth shouldnt be oOOoOoo or so many eyes wooaahhhh" but like... the designs in Look Outside are REALLY cool.

It's 2026. I think we can retire the 'kill it with a bolt pistol' joke on any warhammer art that's not strictly imperium-centric.

New Year... bday soon... going in to this year anxiously with family health... just be a better year. I'm so tired.