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I love Xabaras so fucking much.

And it sucks because the photography in that movie was insane (if only they made actual horror instread of just putting needles everywhere).

To summarize, I disliked the movie because it took the easy way out and just showed a hopeless world that doesn't challenge anyone.

At the end of the movie I felt absolutely nothing because the movie doesn't do anything to challenge you.
It built up towards self destruction since the beginning and then it happened. I do not find it enjoyable to watch things go to shit, else I'd be watching "rise and fall of X" videos on youtube.

Even a bad ending can be used to say "we need to avoid this from ever happening again".
But The Substance doesn't do it. The whole film feels very cowardly because it doesn't want to say that things don't have to be this way.

I realized that hoping is an act of rebellion and that hopelessness is a tool of violence.

The Substance feels like it didn't make this realization yet and sees nothing but violence. It's impossible for someone to love themselves despite all and their only future is self destruction.

The Substance feels incredibly familiar because of its constant buildup towards total destruction.

However with time I came to realize that writing like this only made me feel worse.
Writing queer characters that got to live and be happy also gave me hope that one day I could be happy too

My stories ended badly because I didn't feel like my characters could have a better future.
It has also been a staple (or a stapler) of my stories to turn my characters into giant flesh monsters to symbolize how pain and guilt have taken all their humanity away.

I think that was because of how I felt horrible all the time. I kept repressing my own identity as a trans person and my favorite comic series, Dylan Dog, risked closing down as a whole.
Other political events made me feel even more hopeless about everything.

Good endings appeared only recently in my stories, and are not even that frequent. Before I only used to write endings that went from "everything is horrible" to "the status quo has been renstablished (the status quo is horrible)"

I kinda wanna talk about this a bit more because y'all need to hear me out alright.

The Substance is weird because it feels like something I'd made when I was 15.

The Substance is the movie I bring up to explain the concept of "everything BUT the writing is amazing" lmao

I disliked it so much that it didn't even trigger the kind of obsession I have with things that are bad but savable like the Meteor. It was just wasted.

The soundtrack goes hard tho

So I could say that I'm both fine with the louder lolicore side of breakcore and with the more introspective and darker side of it?

My favorite song so far is One way to Hannover.

I listened to Tomboyish love for soda pops and apple sweets, my love feels all wrong, paranoia EP, copyright infringement EP, ministry of shit, semantics: the benzo chronicles and some of loather.

Despite being very different from one another I loved all of them.

Of course I got out of my artblock by drawing Koji fucking dying.

Good kids, mad city as they say.

I know, must be hard being from Milano...

I'm listening to mashcore right now and I am so glad we made "the radio in your car is freaking out and playing three stations all at once" a music genre.

my friend sheze made a redraw of a one piece screenshot with my persona. the text say "i wanna live" in italian.

Grendizer shaped a lot of how I think, so most of the times you'll find me saying "I DON'T CARE IF REALITY IS MUCH MORE COMPLEX THAN A CARTOON I STILL HAVE HOPE"

Imagine if Grendizer had to sustain modern censorship and you got shit like "Mineo you need to unalive yourself to make Grendizer disappear".

I love being gay
and this world will never make me hate myself for who I am
I deserve to be happy in my life

yeah bring it on!!

goreshit is basically the only breakcore artist I listen to! I also listen to igorrr but I do not know how much he counts considering that he kind of left the more electronic side of music with time...

God motherfucking damn, Grendizer U actually did something good?!

Thanks, I will need you for the part where Hydargos bombs a human spaceship thinking it's the military but instead it's just Katy Perry.

Shit like this kinda concerns me but then I'm like "oh well AI is objectively unsustainable and we already know it's the same three companies financing themselves, shit will be around for at least two more months and then go bankrupt." and I calm down.

Trying to include recent events in artwork is so goddamn hard because things stay relevant for so little and making art takes so long.
By the time I will actually publish things nothing I'll be talking about will be even remembered by most.
Fuck my stupid artist life.

I hate how the human body works.
"uuuuh it's cloudy outside so you'll be sleepy despite sleeping for eight hours and drinking three coffees"
What the fuck man.

I decided to not watch my local soccer team for once and they're winning.
I think I may have been the problem.

I'm pretty new to breakcore so I don't quite know how the genre works in full and I won't watch a three hour video to learn how to distinguish it from jungle.

But the point is that I want to enjoy goreshit without you raving about your silly gay christian robots or whatever the fuck!!!

OH MY GOD CONGRATS!