Shay - entering recovery

I threw my scale away today

K guys im sorry to do this after going full ed mode while making this account but im entering recovery so wish me luck

Omg ur room is awesome

Guys i think im genuinely in sh recovery, for the last time. Like this is the moment i will stop using that coping mechanism as a default when shit gets too heavy for me to cope with in healthy ways.

Okay but the real ones know leanbeefpatty had an ed

Oh and i saw an old man run after a kid on a fatbike bc ur not allowed to bike in the city during store open hours

So im shopping, im one store and someone walks up to me saying i can only pay in cash cause the system isnt working, i go to the next store and the light randomly turns off LOL luckily it turned on again after a minute or two

Here ya go

Been there

Its 3am and my body and brain are just refusing to shut off. Can we sleep now?

So uhm my mom came over and it was a little unexpected and i forgot to put my satisfyer away but luckily i happened to throw something on it, it has been laying out in the open for like 3 days😭

Maybe i should make these

FR

I forgot iced coffee had calories for a sec

Im so bloated from yesterdays binging

Every now and then i still put this song on repeat and it just doesnt turn into shit

No cause when im heavier i do get so overstimulated, also by how my clothes fit but just my body in general and i’ve never even been above bmi 24.5

I love my mom sm, i used to struggle with our relationship so much but it feels so much better now and i think we’re in a healthier space than we’ve ever been

Im ngl im kind of glad to see someone else who gained in a short amount of time despite having a restrictive ed, i went from bmi 19 to 24 in like 4 months and it took everything to stop gaining that quickly

Im so sorry that happened, i hope youre okay <3

Maybe its not that serious

I love when people reply fast, it makes me feel cared about :)

Aw thats sweet <3 i think theres a chance im poly but i dont think i’ve had enough time and space in a relationship to figure that out

Dont celebrate, but i made this

Ah that makes sense im kinda jealous ngl

U had MULTIPLE situationships??

This has been my safe food for about two years which is insane

Welp today is the day i found out that stretching also tears ur muscles to make them longer so essentially the same thing is happening as when you workout to make them stronger

Since i started stretching, my joints rarely hurt, but i also wake up so sore every single day, i can feel my muscles tightening while im just existing for a couple hours

I ate so much today, such high cal foods, im gonna have to exercise purge this so hard if i want to get rid of it tomorrow