ashley

February 16, 2025 at 11:55AM it’s a miserable world and it was as a child too all that’s changed is age and the permission of agency the kind i used to yearn for we give kids the world but don’t let them know anything about it until it’s too late a “fully developed spirit” crushed at the age of 18 21 if you’re lucky and many are substantially not but what do i know on days like these i will my spirit to persist yet can hardly justify a response when it asks me why “if not for others then for yourself” has taken me far or, at the very least to the point i’m at now

but how does that feel? looking around the fruits of labor recognizing i am who we are and i hurt a friend today as my own worst mother an abundance of care and caution burning down forests cuz i fear the sound of trees if i’ve any shot at all it’s refuge in chaos life in death and being the actualized antithesis of everything i feel

here’s the first one

even if it’s corny i’m going to start sharing stuff i write
idk why
what a resolution

the worst part of seeing things change like they are rn is that i swear i knew something was up when i was a kid and yet i was made to feel crazy. now it’s just miserable watching it all come true:(

just confirmed: they dug through the metadata of the zapruder film and yeah, it was definitely shot in canada

the only magic i believe in anymore is the magic of movies and film

toothpaste game is also so fucked up

also travel hack to save time, space and money on luggage: just wear the same clothes

i thought that pulling my hair out crying and puking all over was reserved for sunday nights:(

i fuckin hate money and the medical system and bullshit why the fuck do we all still have to live like this when deep down don’t we all just want to hang out i fucking hate it so much

my papa’s a journeyman like lewis & clark

i just figured it out it’s actually the notifications on my phone that make life feel like it’s worth living

it’s not premature ejaculation if it’s because i love my wife so much plus it’s not a crime to love your wife so sue me

LOVE when i ask a stupid question that i don’t really have to ask and some idiot answers fuck you buddy i literally own you now

all the stuff all over all the time was bad

is it just me or have nazis truly ruined the great azi name?? it’s like i can’t even think about playing yahtzee anymore without feeling like a bigot:(

the thing about listening to jazz is that when you’re listening to it you pretty much always know that you are

whited up quirk boy maybe

kinda can’t stand when people leave the price tag on physical media they’ve purchased, ruins the look of a brilliant collection with tiny little reminders of the hellscape we all live in and they also look bad

regular day crying thinking about how much ichiro means to me

i used to worry that i wasn’t funny but now i worry that i’m too funny cuz i can’t even say my jokes out loud without laughing uproariously at how funny i am which is much easier now that i no longer think that i am unfunny thank you:)

just found out that canada invented mandatory breaks for workers. first known as “take a break” time too, which is what they called it because “sometimes you need to take a break”

thinking more about this, blood is quite literally the lifeblood of ourselves, and i think that’s pretty cool:)

feel like i’m late to the party but blood is pretty cool!!

i used to have no feelings on death until i realized it’s basically the game over of life #isanyoneelsepissedoff

i’m gonna be so tough someday

life is just a real ripoff and so often it feels like it’s just up to you on how you contextualize n then use those feelings n sometimes that rocks n cool stuff happens but sometimes all it does is make me upset and sad and that just sucks so much. sometimes it’s a lot that it’s all up to you:(

just realized most people actually pay the troll toll?? me though, i just kick him in the nuts

can’t wait to get my hands on the person that decides whether or not it’s going to be a good/bad day

finally saw singles not too long ago and was dissapointed, was expecting wayyy too much from it:(

BIG personal movie news day today! finally seeing Wicked on the big screen and getting paid to do so!