Ryan Meader

Doomscrolling

The horrors persist, but so does the beauty.

a man with glasses says " you know when i 'm down to my socks " ALT: a man with glasses says " you know when i 'm down to my socks "

Pass out on your feet type business. Drag yourself across the floor like a Marvel Zombie business.

I was going to say that it’s a wonder I can communicate coherently at all, but the strong urge to add “it’s Business Time” here would tend to indicate I may have used up the coherence juice. 😏

I’m already chronically sleep deprived, on a terrible and unpredictable schedule, and fatigued all the time even at my summer baseline which is drastically better than late November with RSV and 2+ storms/week.

So when I say the fatigue is scary right now, we’re talking serious business.

…and it’s so hard to sleep when you’re always in moderate to severe pain from dozens of sources which gets amped up dramatically by the reactive arthritis flare from the virus.

So I can’t really rest my way out of the problem. In fact sleep hurts me *a lot* more than extreme sports (MTB) do.

Trying to convince myself that post viral fatigue is very common with (presumed) RSV and not that unusual with lots of other viruses so I shouldn’t panic. It’s only been a few days, and 2-3 weeks is pretty common even for healthy people.

But the fatigue is just so bad…

Watch the donut, not the hole 🫡

I absolutely did not have Zohran snake charming Trump on my bingo card today.

Wild times, even by 2025 standards.

In their defense that’s probably what an article about “variable geometry frame dragging in accretion disks of boson stars in polar orbits around gravitational wave emitting binary singularities due to relativistic effects on spacetime in complex interacting gravity wells” sounds like to them. 😆

Family caught something that’s negative for covid and flu (suspect RSV based on a bunch of unique things about it) and I’m sick for only the third time since 2019.

The reactive arthritis flare is brutal. My dirt season off-ramp has become a very steep garbage chute.

Am I okay? Yes, and also no. 🤷‍♂️

Pretty excited about this. It’s about damned time.

Given all the cap ex spent on AI, for the industry to see just a 10% return on investment, between now and 2030, they would need to earn $750 billion per year in revenue. That's about $200 per month from every Netflix subscriber or $40 per month from every iPhone user.

Fine Young Tyrants

✔️ Last chair
✔️ Red lightsaber ♦️♦️
✔️ Many abilities some consider to be unnatural

Why would you say something so brave, correct, and unprofitable? 🤔

We have friends everywhere

There’s a side plot like that in the prequel trilogy Foundation books about the robot-worshipping Mycogen district on the capital planet Trantor, but this description sounds more like the version the TV show went with.

I’m starting to think this recent campaign of bizarrely reasonable takes on various issues is her laying the groundwork for a near-future run at the speakership based on at least a few votes from the other side of the aisle…a notion which is, again, bizarre.

But nothing surprises me any more.

But in that setting, I found tools to help me stay in the fight that I could never have endured this long without.

I eventually outgrew constant Carrabassett enduro rides, branched out and entered my park era (which brought me back to CV for the Loaf bike park). But those days changed me forever.

Not unlike this year, it was truly brutal behind this thin veneer of social media positivity, and at any given time I was far more the first word in Disabled Athlete than the second.

Pain, fatigue and bodily functions failing at a dire level were — and are — constant companions.

5 years ago today in 2020 when we lived at the foot of Sugarloaf Mountain in Carrabassett Valley while our home was being gutted for mold removal in southern Maine.

Those months living with a proper trail network out the door changed my life and set a tone that’s gotten me through the years since.

Rando: "Communist!"
Zohran: "It's pronounced 'cyclist!"

Zohran is so good at this.
#Zohran
#NewYork

I need more party people in my life.

Has to be rough on parents checking their kids candy for weed gummies to realize it’s a made up moral panic and also they don’t get any free weed gummies

The sprit of Freeride isn’t dead.

Even — or perhaps especially — where most bikes never go.

Apparently my chronic fatigue owes me two gigatons of TNT plus 25 years of compounding interest, adjusted for inflation.

Can anyone spare me a yikes?

I’m fresh out.