Alexandra

it's been about a week since I stopped taking them and I feel like my disassociative whimsy is coming back hopefully i can lose my mind (good)

hoping the best for you it's been hard out here 💓

doing all your chores on friday to wake, bake, and bedrot

the voices tell me to post tits for the attention of internet strangers

hi bluesky ❤️ #trans #transfem #lgbt

posting this here so I don't send it to her

Until you hold me again in this reality, or the cabin in the woods. Whatever be it.

Maybe at the cabin when my flaws are purged from my soul I can be your person again. Your partner.

I love you. I hate you. Goodbye. Until next time.

I love you.

And so I'll say goodbye until next time. Even if I have to wait a lifetime, lifetimes, all time.

I'll say goodbye, and I'll continue to fight, my lonely sigil, my solitary plight. As I always have. For us. For me. Goodbye Taylor, my sun and my stars.

I'll fight and improve myself everyday for us. Because it kept me alive. It kept me moving. It was the fire underneath me.

I choose to fight. I choose to live. Delusional or not, this is harm reduction. The alternative isn't an option. You've shown me that.

I'll keep me alive, regardless of the cost.

I'll imagine her coming back, regardless of it eroding my sanity until I'm a husk.

Because I choose to live.

To you who told me to give up on those dreams, I don't think you realize it's all that's kept me alive. Us alive.

I'll keep fighting for us. Even if it never happens, because it was never assured in the first place.

Nonetheless, fighting for us kept us alive.

Kept me alive.

I choose to live.

And if I have to fight for us to live, in a reality where there is no us, then delusional I'll be.

I won't give up.

Fighting for us kept us alive, kept me alive.

Call me delusional, call me obsessed, insane, I don't care.

It kept us alive for three fucking years through hell and back. Alone, I fought and carried her, catatonic, behind me through rain, sleet, snow, and shine.

today on being stuck in the past:

remembering when she insistently offered to hold me because of how cold I looked

remembering how she had to leave my birthday celebration early because she realized she loved me

remembering when she held my hand before we started dating because we were drunk

Fanart of Reina from Tekken. She's kneeling, a mildly deranged look on her face, and the camera is at a low angle looking up at her. There is Japanese Kanji behind her that says "REINA." The piece has bright green accents, and Reina is cel-shaded with solid black.

reina >:3

sleepy boy ~~

hi bluesky I'm feeling normal (im doing so bad)

my strat is just have awkward eye contact across the environment until someone gets the nerve to share snap/disc lmao

hey hi what's up

I miss my best friend so much

I don't know what I've done wrong up until yesterday that made her not want to talk to me anymore it's killing me

seeking help when you need it? expensive and difficult

crashing out and getting pulled to the ER by a wellness check? well, that's just priceless baby

RIP bozo

Warewolf to vampire: "Hey Um I think you dropped this"

Vampire: "You're not scared of me, are you, pup?"

Warewolf: "...I thought you might need it for professor Graves midterm." Vampire: "I don't. But... maybe you can tutor me anyway."

Vampire and Warewolf talking in the library. Warewolf tail is wiggling.

College Freaks concept.

BespectacledGirl - Twitch sneezeframe~ (im sick)

streaming rn, sniffle stream (bad allergies)

anyways, here's this