🪲DABUG🪲

Wake up honey, your bug delivery is here 🪲

#illustration #artsky #insects #animalart

if this is canon this is funny as fuck

i will keep going though 🫡 i’ll make something work… i will keep trying my best until i cant… i love all of you and am wishing you well from the trenches lol🧡

BUT at least im not broke! i have that going for me! 🙏 Anyways thank you all for your patience and companionship. i miss my friends so much… i feel terrible ive had no time to talk to anyone for a while… it sucks because i dont even have time to hang out with my partner who i LIVE with much anymore😔

ive been itching to draw and get work done, i want to apologize again to those who i owe art to for taking so so long and again, working at a snails pace. i really thought things would improve after i got my first job but they really didnt lol in fact they arguably got worse somehow 😭

my mental health has been really bad and working two physically tasking jobs has been destroying my body. but it did quell any “maybe im not actually disabled/disabled enough” thoughts i had… so there’s that lmao. but anyways, thats where im at right now and why i’ve been MIA for several weeks…

its a very real concern that i have. it just blows because i dont have any of my past medical records or any official diagnosis (that i know of) tied to me. and getting those back is going to take a long time and ya boy STILL doesnt have health insurance ✌🏻so… idk… im under a lot of stress rn lol

because i honestly dont know when that time will come and it freaks me out a little!!! but im also paranoid that my newer job might let me go someday because… im disabled. i cant work or function as well or as fast as other people in the job. that might be the past shitty boss trauma talking but idk

there is a fear that i have that if im forced to move again that i wont be able to financially support me and my partner… where we live now, the cost of living is SIGNIFICANTLY higher than where i came from… so im trying to save up as much money and resources i can before that happens…

that i worked for years ago. they waste so much food and resources and other peoples time and it doesn’t feel good working there at all… my other job pays me well and is by far a more ethical place to work that mitigates issues as much as possible. that and i COULD sustain myself financially from it

we’re just woefully understaffed and management refuses to do anything about it and make the necessary and very EASY adjustments that need to be made. but its this job im wanting to leave behind because they pay me fuck all, overwork the hell out of me and others and is just the same shitty company

especially coming from a job where my boss hated me and was actively trying to get rid of me, cut my hours, and create a hostile working environment for me and everyone else… having a good manager that cares about me is comforting and i feel terrible leaving her behind to her shitty corporation…

if i cant cut my hours im gonna be forced to quit, which would put that job in a really tricky and shitty conundrum… it sucks because my manager who i work for there has been nothing but kind to me and has been very understanding and accommodating for my situation so far… i dont wanna do that to her

i have two (technically three if you count commission work/freelancing one) jobs atm so i genuinely never have time to do… anything. im trying to reduce my hours at my full time job right now so that i can have two part times instead… cause right now there are days were i will work at least 12 hours

Life update for anyone who cares/wants it!:

im still alive lol. things are still really rough at home and everything has just kind of turned into a waiting game… not a fun one in that the outcomes of said game are an uncertain future and likely harder times ahead but for now i’m… arguably alright

OH my god i forgot to resub to your patreon 🏃🏻

CHOICE 🥄 Ritsu Kageyama Animation Meme

#mp100 #mobpsycho100

so if thats anything 😭🙏 customer facing jobs blow so much ass… especially as autistic dudes (dont even mention the t part) cause it feels like the only non customer facing ones are manual labor at insane hours of the day… guess i’ll get swole…? anyways take care man 🫂 we’ll get through this…

also feeling this 🤝 with the heaviest heart… i know i couldnt even think about affording to go back to school, regardless of what it is… i currently work two grocery store jobs and its lowkey killing me, but one of them is in the bakery department where i pull up at 4 am and see like no customers…

Putting my ocs in a tron au and remaking the movie in my brain with them in it

Pretending the new NIN album is about my ocs and not the fuckass tron movie

hes such a baby i love him….. 🤲🏻

I love seeing queer artists draw bodies. Queer attraction and beauty has such range to it, and I love seeing body types and parts that we've been told are ugly drawn with such care. I love getting to see the body from so many different perspectives

A trio of digitally illustrated figures, wearing intricately patterned costume designs inspired by the bugs: hornet, ladybird and stag beetle.

Bugs 🐝 🐞 🪲

i thought the same fucking shit i was like no fucking way right. watch it cost money now too

the manageerrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

WHAT IS YOUR NEW CATS NAME

You are under no obligation to mourn the death of people who would’ve celebrated yours.

A sketch of Sorbet drawn to look more like his artist than usual, in short hair and casual clothes. He is visibly stressed, and text surrounds him explaining many reasons why, with arrows pointing back at him. The texts read: His country wants to strip him of medical access for being poor, partly (invisibly) disabled, and trans. His country wants to strip him of his only viable source of income. He just got sober, AND weed is once again illegal in his state so he can't even smoke about it. He knows his country is currently causing others even more extreme issues. We literally have concentration camps. Again. He is being asked culturally to function like he is fine and nothing insane is going on. AND we don't even have coherent art movements or subculture to express these experiences through anymore.

( vent )
sorry I've been so quiet. I've been a little stressed lately.