Su remembers.

In retrospect, it was so extremely cruel.

Alprazolam is the quintessential psychoactive substance for me, not only because it's my earliest scheduled drug, but also because my mum, in faded memory, said 'it won't ache once you fall asleep'.

From Ward Confined to the Liberated Kingdom The Locked Room          It was always like that, as I have known it for too many times, a ceiling of pure white and light, designed to sensory overwhelm you. The humming and flickering sound of the ...

For my long-overdue essay (and Bluesky account): artsreview.su/from-ward-co...

I dare not to see the news stateside, it's too cruel and transparently brutal.

I really enjoy finding the marginalised in theology - please be expecting my 2025 Quintessential: From the Locked Ward to Liberated Kingdom - A Theology of Exile, Marginalisation, and Silence.

I have an inherent fear of collectively doing anything, esp. criticising someone. But this time, Valeria's action is outraging public. Bully against marginalised people, even if they are Christian and trans, must stop.

是哪裡呀（

As an ecumenical, transgender Christian, I've never realised how rare and controversial we are in China.

Psych ward?

Today has been a big day of reconciliation. I've talked to people whom I've previously hurt (at least I thought), and people who are distant, and with my parents regarding my trauma.

I've got a sole Lamy 2000 lasting, the only resort.

Tomorrow my first client should receive their tea! My four tea assortments would finally prove their value, and my Fujianese discernment!

Nanjing has a massive temperature drop. Thanks to it I can resume my business formal attire.

Still a bit sad because the psych ward lost my most important belongings that I've been gifted for a decade.

Transitioned for about eight months. Wearing a black tie (not complete) in Archbishop's Residence, Nanjing.

Xi'an Beilin Museum. Pre-transition, black tie (not completed)

Transition - so far so good!

I sorta wish I'm less angel girl. Like, I've been living an extreme life, and I'd appreciate some respite. When will that happen?

*I'm a real licensed commercial mariner in PRC

Lt Sgt Lady Yonah LLB KC, 'Su the Tactical Girl'. Navy solicitor, good at enforcing habeas corpus whilst parachuting to transphobic land.

Whenever I'm stressed out (extreme trauma, torture etc) I'd brain-play some Christian songs. Is that reactionary?

They do power me. Like, they let me know I'm not that lonely even when the world I'm situated in wants to consume me.

I don't know how you English people address the former part of the hair, which covers the forehead?

La cérémonie des adieux.

I want to fix myself, I want to get fixed. Finally, I don't need others to want to get fixed.

I want to leave somehow. Hospitalisation is a self-imposed punishment, and it didn't end well.

Whoever has experienced trauma would inevitably get addicted to it.

Yangtze River North is more populated than Jiangxin Island, alas. I do take pride living in the Island, however life's unforgiving there.

Nanjing has left too much memories and marks for me, so I'm considering rebasing in the Delta.

Please note that I will be taken into custody tomorrow for an indefinite time. Please take care and expect slow response.

My past, present, and future partners: stop 'BPD' me. Stigmatising and abusing this term is shameful.

各位還未拋棄我的朋友們，請知道我一直愛你們。從昨日直到今時，從今時直到永遠。我愛你們如同主愛你們。

Friends who have kept me in their company, please know that I have always kept, keep, and it's about to keep you in my heart. I love you all and God knows you all.

Yes, quality as in takes 60 seconds to pass the first proxy and a further 60 seconds in waiting, if not an extra 90 secs for intl resources. The search function takes like, EX & PARTE but not in other forms.

They should pay *me* back alas.

Good gracious, they charge a crazy amount of money for all states and federal, for any legal / compliance / tax blahblah software / database

I should come off Quetiapine (when I was on 25 mg)
I should come off Quetiapine (when I was on 100 mg)
I should come off Quetiapine (when I was on 200 mg)
I should come off Quetiapine (when I was on 450 mg)

Living in a great fear that my smuggled Vortioxetine is gonna be out of stock / price increased. It causes nearly 2 grand per month in China, nearly a minimum wage. Smuggled version is affordable though.