dostoyevsky's trench coat 🔻

mums drinking gave me fetal alcohol spectrum disorder (google it, it ain’t FAS), trauma so severe i got two personality disorders, one causes my behavioural problems. sickle cell. employers want obedient robots and i’m not that, so im unemployable. social workers say im too hard. i got nobody. sex.

im a former child of the system who they often describe like « fell thru the cracks » cos they neglected me and left me to be sexually physically mentally and everythingally abused and didn’t care bc they don’t protect black children. aged out of every resource and left to my own devices. sex.

yeah

oh im sorry is it too graphic? why i thought u wanted to save « sex workers who are addicts and hasn’t eaten » you don’t get to pretend to give a shit while not actually knowing shit. when im too fed up to keep sharing my fundraiser that gets ignored thats what i do to help meet my goal. i hate anal

do you ACTUALLY care. do you? you don’t. you say « i do » you don’t. not enough, you don’t. typing out « i care » is easy. asking ur monied friends to step up and help keep us housed, warm, fed, so we don’t have to sometimes take rough penetration from behind or in the mouth is also easy but useful

so pure. so iconic. sir lewis carl davidson hamilton.

this is why i don’t make fun of ppl for getting older/being older. (or rarely do) i think, especially when multiply marginalised, growing old as a black person is a gift, a privilege. something to cherish. stop that « black don’t crack » nonsense, sometimes it does and thats totally okay. it’s okay.

wasn’t familiar but like, this is so sad that rappers are dropping like flies before reaching 50yo.

i really like when horror movies have a scene with like, a horde of creatures gorily mutilating and eating a giant hunk of meat or a corpse and then a scientist / gov official is like "hungry little guys, aren't they?" and everyone else is aghast. more of this

so sick of people pitying and telling me « i do care » that shit doesn’t help me, send money to keep me housed/avoid homelessness and having to do unwanted sexual favours or don’t tell me nothing

do NOT use my story to be a whorephobic cunt. this is not for u saviour complexed cunts, i don’t like u

i was groomed into this shit so badly that i fully believe im not good at anything else. these ppl are never around when its time to share funds. is it bc im not esteem european? some of my clothes i got thanks to sodomy! do you actually care? do you? no you don’t

these people do not care. you PRETEND to care. that sex worker u think u care about is IMAGINARY

rly sick of ppl pretending to give a fuck about « sex workers who are addicts and have not eaten and exploited »
because i fit that description, transaction of sex is all i’ve done since i was as young as 10, i learnt everything at 9 bc my friends were teens. pædos loved this. it’s all i knew

im rly annoyed and dk how to proceed im frustrated.

g0al: 482$

el0n is making some accounts invisible/suspending us.

hello! CF for february r3nt increase and late/early month bills. el0n put me a label so im invisible on both accounts☹️ pls share if u see this post, thank you so much 🩵😭

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#HelpSky

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no sound cos im deaf/sound is connected in my cochlear implant lol my bad

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No one compares. Not even close.

Gabe Kidd has wrestled 126 matches since the last time Kenny Omega wrestled. Wild.

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Cancel all plans and put the AEW World Title on Takeshita.

shota lowkey gots the trans flag🏳️‍⚧️ colours🥹🥹🥹 #NJWD

lowkey defo freaking out and spiraling about whether im gonna be able to fundraise or just perish