J_Linebeck

I don't blame anyone for hating me because of this. I'm not saying any of this to garner sympathy. I don't want any sympathy. I'm saying all of this because I want to be honest. I don't want to go back. I can't allow any excuses anymore.

I let myself think that people secretly hated me, and in turn came to believe that it was fair for me to be horrible to them to see if it was true. There's no excusing that, even having BPD. It wasn't fair on them.

I will break free of this cycle, and I will start it by letting go of my past habits. That belief that I can just walk back things and pretend everything is fine. It's not fair to anyone. I was manipulative and emotionally abusive.

To everyone that's been hurt because of my actions over the years: I'm sorry. And I don't expect any forgiveness. I don't want any forgiveness. I don't want any of you to feel guilty because of me, because none of you are guilty. None of you are responsible for me. I'm the one that broke it all.

I cannot allow myself to continue this cycle. I have to be strong. I have to believe in everyone and myself. I can't give up.

I don't expect anyone to forgive me. What's done is done. The least I can do now is actually work on improving myself so that nobody else has to suffer because of me. So that nobody else ever has to feel like they're wasting their time on me. It's all my responsibility to improve myself.

I'm going to knuckle down and do something about myself and my mental health. No more thinking that I'm fine, that I can just power through it. I had deluded myself into thinking that I couldn't do more, that I could just walk it back. No more of that.

Explanation: pastebin.com/8W9C5mDT

Sorry, today's a really bad mental health day for me. Gonna go offline for a couple of days

sorry

I genuinely agree with Hector Hectorson, the FF14 community needs to stop calling strats "Braindead"

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Hey all, sorry for the sudden call for some help but one of my leopard geckos has conjunctivitis and I need some help paying for her treatment until I can start my new job. Please boost if you can! 🥺🦎

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Shadowbringers Week - Dulia Chai & Chai-Nuzz

#FFXIV #FFXIVArt #Miqote #Shadowbringers #Blender #Render

I’m baaaaack!  I’m excited to announce I sing a new song in the latest update (7.2) of Final Fantasy XIV!  Composed by Soken Masayoshi, it’s called ‘Unleashed’ and appears during the final boss battle of the ACC Cruiserweight raid! #ffxiv #ff14 #finalfantasyxiv #finalfantasy14

i need people to understand that asian grocery stores aren’t just a lifeline to asian americans: they’re also a source of fresh and affordable produce to low income non-asians who live in HCOL areas

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Hylian Modding Explore a collection of Zelda 64 mods, along with some powerful tools and simple tutorials for creating your own mods.

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The Ocarina of Time modding scene has been a great showcase of how well Horror works for OOT. There's been a number of pretty creative romhacks delving into horror.

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Speaking of metroidvanias, one game I can't recommend highly enough is Iconoclasts, still some of the lushest pixelart I've ever seen, and has one absolute hell of a good story with some positively wonderful characters, and it's 75% off right now.

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Runescape and looking up cheats on GameFAQs

A silly add
#ffxiv

Preserving the original version is still important, regardless of which is better.

🐸🕺 Dancing Green and Disco 🕺🐸

Thought it would be interesting make a thread on Dancing Green and all his 70's/80's disco references found within his mechanic names, either from the song titles themselves or from the lyrics within these really iconic songs of the era!

Mechanic titles & refs below!

7.2 spoilers

the arcadion bisexual drama has bewitched me body and soul

It really doesn't help that my voice gives me gender dysphoria issues too, hence why I try to minimise having to talk whenever I can

Doing a rare kink related post here but the fact that I, an extremely sex adverse asexual person was given a voice that apparently really turns people on when used a certain way especially for BDSM is just my luck.

Could've been given a talent more suited for me but no.

Instead of believing the myth that three expensive, genetically modified wolves are “de-extinct” dire wolves, let’s look at animals humanity has actually brought back from the brink of extinction using proven science and dedicated hard work: 🧵/6

not to terrify you but google "cop stalks woman" for literally hundreds of examples