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like I made it quite far. then it's all just up in the air, family issues can cause such a storm and idk maybe something's in the air cause I woke up awful today but I'm so tired and feel such a weight in my soul that I wish was lifted

it's strange having such powerful negative dark emotions while you feel happy? like I thought they happened because I was sad but even if not sad they can just negatively powerful consist. so this is just another permanent side effect of growing up with CPTSD I guess. why did it all wait to show up

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if I took this sorta tolerance break I'd suffer fierce

I wish I could still get high and not just feel the constant "hey you've had weed" buzz, I want red eyes and giggles :(

Some day ill properly be able to figure out the ratio of "degree of closeness person has to me" to "how many times i have to put up with their shit before i cut them out of my life"

boom you're awake you're straight into all the awful memories of the day before to the life before to the forever before

"i don't think british people are funny"

— @spacethey.gay

I'm on social media to be part of the public square. I really don't see myself joining any instances forked from Bluesky, cause if I just wanted a small insular community I'd be on my discord server.

I like seeing and interacting with a wide variety of people. Even if some of them suck major ass.

constant feeling if having failed and being a failure 😞😔

“let me get this straight. you want to go home and sleep?” joker: i do. joker. i’m tired.

there's just no real reprieve anymore

I'm tired of feeling so much pain, intrusive thoughts and emotional meh

every day i am going to tag one of the devs until they let me see who is saving my shit and also let me turn off saves on posts

not overly :(

more pain, now lack of sleep, it burns so much, and feels like someone came up and punched me, so little sleep

*ddep heavy gutral sigh*

goodnight folks for tonight

Just too many overwhelming things and thoughts. I'm trying but gosh just yeah anyway you push through anyway yeah

*quiet crying*

I actually can't describe what I do feel inside really. It's such a strong mix of emotions that deeply deeply deeply reside in your soul that you feel. And I'm tired. So fucking tired. I just. Idk anymore man.

Look i'm just crashing out and just idk.

Just fuck man, alright?

I just can't.

Sometimes you be like "I don't care about this or that" then suddenly you care about this or that and fuck dude.

I'm tired. I'm so tired.

Holy fuck I have crashed out entirely I'm actually just so broken sometimes.

Racked with insecurity most of the time, guilt, anxiety, doubt, stress, nearly all the time, pain, tiredness, fatigue, money anxiety, gluten reactions.... MAN. I'm tired. I'm so tired.

I just want things to be easier.

yeah it's so difficult to find the balance to make sure it doesn't go down the wrong way and gosh do I wish my brain emotions and nerves could all get on the same page for a little while
I'm sorry you feel these things, too.

CPTSD is not your fault. CPTSD doesn't define your identity. You can live with CPTSD.

thank you, btw

lately I am slowly reminding my self if my voice and who I am, one day and one thing at a time

Movie that you've watched more than six times with a with a qif. Hard mode: no Star Wars nor Trek), LOTR, or Marvel Disney Animated or Pixar.