God. Once you've been on your ass, it's incredibly difficult to get back on your feet. You'd think, haven't gotten up multiple times, the practice and the experience would make it easier, but it's actually harder each time.

It obviously sucked not being able to play guitar, not even knowing if it would heal, but I did inadvertently find out what it was like to have someone else play guitar for a while, allowing me to spend most of my time OFF the stage ...interacting.... with people.

When I was 18, my left arm atrophied for 4 months. Botulinas toxin. In my dope. It had a muscle relaxant effect. I missed a little bit and it stayed in my bicep and my whole arm was useless.
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Winter hasn't even started and it's already been below freezing every night for a week. I am so sick of everything. I'm especially sick of being scared. It's exhausting. I suppose it's time to curl up in a ball.

I rely entirely on spontaneous organic community. There's no dedicated safety net or mental health resource available through official channels for me. I fall down, only others like me can pick me up. This week has been unbearable. The 2 weeks prior were terrifying. I'm a wreck.

How the fuck, in 2025, are there still people serving life for shit they did when they were kids, and WHY is there a YT channel where a guy watches their parole hearings and rages about them even GETTING a hearing? You can't buy beer until you're 21, but you can get a life sentence at 11. It's sick.

Even if they do, who cares? Why is that bad? If you slept on the ground, you might want to be intoxicated too. When I was homeless, I shot enough dope to kill a city. When you're high as hell on a strong opiate, you don't feel the cold at all. It also doesn't hurt as much to sleep on concrete.

🚨Be prepared for ICE to pull out a loaded firearm and point it at you for any given reason at any given time. The government of the USA in 2025 has declared war on citizens. Grateful the police sent ICE away - for now. 1/2

Thank you <3

Confined To Quarters, by Adamrainstopper 25 track album

Do you like your punk rock angry, raw, honest? Me too. Check this out. There's two other albums too, a couple of loose songs. This one isn't the most recent, but it's one I'm proud of.
adamrainstopper.bandcamp.com/album/confin...

Never been an accelerationist, but don't interpret tuesday as an excuse to let your guard down. Yes, some democrats were elected. The real value in that is as a predictor of the direction things are headed. Fascism will never be defeated until the system that nurtures it is abolished.

Blankets, hood up, blindfold, curling up in a little ball. Exhaustion is making me numb and numbness is making me shut down. I did what I had to do for now. I really need rest.

I don't need your forgiveness and I don't need you to acknowledge that my alleged debt to society is paid. I stole from the homes of a real estate developer and the head of a health insurance company's PR department. I'm not sorry for that. I resent losing the first half my 20s.

The last few weeks have been very eventful. I gotta admit, it's hard to hold back, but I can't go into any detail. Talked with someone safe, away from devices. Things are getting real. Pain doesn't even hurt anymore. I hope I don't go totally numb. When I got out, took years to feel again.

Even prisoners figure out how to do tattoos. All my ink is from prison. Does that mean I'm not poor? When people look at my hair, do they assume I paid someone 50 bucks to do it for me?

Overdue on everything, trying to stay housed for the winter. Delinquency fees will increase again on the 1st. Anything helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity. #MutualAidRequest #MutualAid
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Overdue on everything, trying to stay housed for the winter. Delinquency fees will increase again on the 1st. Anything helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity. #MutualAidRequest #MutualAid
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I wish this was even remotely surprising. Cops steal every single day in every single city. If you have 1 firearm on you, they'll bust you. If you have a trunk full of them? They'll let you go then sell your guns. Same with large amounts of drugs. Same with cash. Seen it hundreds of times.

Is THAT how so many of our homegrown chuds ended up in Florida? I guess it makes sense, they have more wealth on average so they can afford it, it's warmer, and of course, it's chuddier. He probably already owns a house there. Fuck him. Even his own family won't miss him.

No movement yesterday on our collections!

My health has really been up and down lately and it's taking a big chunk out of what we collected for the move.

Anything helps us get out of this tent!
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memory costs are only continuing to increase, so I am going to update my goal amount to $2100 to reflect that

I already had to halve the memory from my current (DDR4) build to bring it down to $2000 & I don’t think less than that will be usable to me

if u wanna help me afford it before it’s $2200:

It's a good thing dope is so much smaller than coke, a $10 bag is like a 20th of a gram. I was able to case enough so I didn't have to detox on the gym floor at county. Still had to detox, but at least I was in a cell by then, would someone who was willing to hold my head while I had seizures.

Please contribute if you're able or share the original if you're not.

Note that the most effective way to get help for people is to directly ask people you know

Delinquent on taxes and electric, we're about 3/4 of the way there but cutting it close. Any amount helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity.
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Delinquent on taxes and electric, we're about 3/4 of the way there but cutting it close. Any amount helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity.
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Trying to stay housed for the winter, gotta pay the electric soon as well or they'll shut us off. We're close. Closer than I thought we'd get. We still need some help. Any amount helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity.
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Trying to stay housed for the winter, gotta pay the electric soon as well or they'll shut us off. We're close. Closer than I thought we'd get. We still need some help. Any amount helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity.
#MutualAid #MutualAidRequest
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My mucous is still about 30% CS gas.

We have a tax payment to make and an overdue electric bill. Winter is coming and we're trying to stay housed. Any amount helps. Reposting helps. Thanks & Solidarity. #MutualAidRequest #MutualAid
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