Jayme

Meal prepping so far has been working

Didn't overeat today.. I'm doubtful cuz this always happens around the start of my period and it's not just me learning self control. I'll probably start overeating or binging in like 3 days. Let's hope not 🙏

I also haven't been throwing up or cutting or drinking as of late. Just the usual overeating

I'm ready to start meal prepping... (if I actually manage to wake up early tomorrow to shop and cook🐎🐎)

Always so uncontrollably hungry and then I remember I haven't had a single sip of water

Why couldn't I have the same metabolism of a 13 year old boy 🧍

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We just played video games, watched a movie, and got to cuddle with her pets 🥳 couldn't bring myself to feel anyrhing romantic so even as friends this was okay

I went on the date and we didn't hookup. Honestly glad I didn't it made me realize I actually have some sort of self respect left, enough to not have sex with just anyone

I pro a ly shouldn't cyt myself the day before a hookup but idk I'll just wear a long sleeve

There's no fixing myself. I'm gonna return back to work in a few days and be my usual self and I'll see myself in the mirror and see the ugly disgusting monster that I am

Anytime I see a beautiful face I csnt help but want to end it all

It's 1:49am and I'm feeling hungry FUCK

Didn't throw up , didn't binge, and didn't cut today. Tomorrow? Who knows

The more I read of the side effects of eating disorders the less I care and the more I want to continue doing them. I've fully given up on myself, or at least accepted that it won't get any better than this

I feel sick. I'm just getting worse.

It's not worth it, showering can help take the urge away. A warm shower for comfort or a cold one to get the same affect you would with self harm if that makes sense

I wish you luck 🙇‍♀️

Made plans with the woman I've been talking to. I honestly don't want to but I need the experience and hopefully I don't freeze up and if it does happen she doesn't expect a relationship cuz we already agreed it wouldn't be long term 🙏

Do you need recommendations? Though I've mostly got angst I think the only happy one I know is carol

I wonder if I threw up again but just had the shower on and music playing anyone would hear me

Want to cut myself but afraid that if I do only grease will spill out

It's like I experience the 7 stages of hell all at once everytime I look into a mirror. I really want to die

I really wanna kms

Should a stranger even be my first time or does it not matter 😭

I really want to feel the touch of another woman but whenever I am presented with a real lesbian that's dtf I get intimidated cuz i have 0 experience and Don't know how to flirt and how do I even bring it up EVEN THOUGH THEY SAID THEY WERE DTF WHENEVER

Tummy hurts but I'm no longer in pain like I was earlier. It's sort of working as an appetite suppressant

Can't stop shivering and I feel so fucking cold

They're not getting paid they just have a lot of blackmail against them 💀

Woke up just to throw up violently into a bucket my organs hurt so much I don't know how to fix this it's like super painful