Grim, RN

Apparently it was just the one? I don’t know why I thought he was involved in the deaths of 2 Pontiffs.

KEEP HIM AWAY FROM CHICAGO POPE.

We have had a lot of embarrassing vice presidents.

It is what it is.

But I feel like JD Vance is a whole new ball game.

Like there was the one who got in the argument over the spelling of .. “potatoes” with a literal child.

Oh god. Quayle.

So many.

But no one killed 2 popes before.

Doesn’t the VP have…. People?

Or did he have people but they all died from being in his presence so now he shops for himself?

Because what is this?

💕💸

Oh this is ridiculous.

I miss when Popeye’s had Jambalaya.

A I age showing a typical collection bucket for the salvation army which is read with a lid holding mechanism on a tripod holder. There is a big stop/do not symbol over the hand depositing money with the words "we don't donate to the Bigot bucket" over the bottom bucket section

I know it's a tad early but I know those bitches with the buckets will be out soon. Don't gove them a penny. The volunteers may not know but the salvation army is no ally and actively combative and harmful to many queer minorities especially during the holiday season

I doubt anyone is concerned about how far I walked but I do want to point out I walk anywhere from 4-10 miles a night when I work.

But I forgot about the pleasure of walking with no one asking you and no place to really be.

This is the first walk for pleasure I have taken in at least two years.

I’ve walked about 3 miles and it’s cold. So I’m probably getting a Lyft home.

This therapy lasts 4-6 weeks. I’m not sure if I’m going to talk about it each time but I feel pelvic floor therapy isn’t widely known or it’s a scary topic.

So we need to discuss it.

This first appointment was more like an exam with massage. She worked on my back and examined how my hips and legs moved.

We talked about things we had in common, like our professions losing funding from the Dept of Education.

It was a good appointment.

I was really scared of this appointment, as a survivor of CSA. I was open with the therapist about my fears. This itself was hard to do. Telling someone you know is going to touch you on your genitals, even in a professional environment about assault is rough.

I’ve reported this repeatedly but finally.. a provider took me seriously and booked me into therapy. Last week I had an intake.

Today I went to my first hands on appointment.

I am in the middle of a very long walk on the way back from a #pelvicfloor appointment.

I have talked about this before, but I’m hypermobile. After my 9 week long bout with COVID in 2020, which took me a year to recover and get back into bedside nursing- after that I had incontinence.

Has anyone watched “This is Going to Hurt?”

Is it worth it?

Of all the questions to ask, never this.

But I’d need financial assistance to move internationally and I don’t want to have to find homes for my cats. They are older now and I don’t want to not be able to have them.

Ireland had a change in their laws recently and you no longer have to repeat nursing school to become a nurse there, you have to take boards, which makes it a more reasonable situation.

The thought of leaving Colorado is difficult because I don’t want to go somewhere that doesn’t have much of a social net. I know our social nets are being withered away.

And yes, I have thought about Canada and Ireland. I’ve thought about a lot of places.

I really want to move back East. I want to be within a day’s drive of my sister. I’m looking at New York, Southern Illinois, New England. My sister lives in a bright red state so I don’t want to live there. I would like to be near the only family member I have.

It really does.

I’ve been told “you’ll know” if it’s different but honestly, when my blood pressure and heart rate went up (it was around 225/130 and a heart rate of 175 for hours). I felt terrified the entire time.

It’s a horrible reminder, since I just turned 49, that my biological grandfather died of a heart attack in his early 50’s and about 20 years ago, my father had a quadruple bypass.

And I have chronic chest pain.

So yeah, back in the Spring, my blood pressure shot up. It’s always been normal, but it’s been really bad. I’ve had a lot of appointments and after three months, I have a medication to take. Another fucking pill.

This is so weird because I also have been very close to a POTS diagnosis.

It’s not as good as I thought but at least it’s something I don’t have to pay.

Sadly it’s NOT the ER bills, but it is about $200 that I don’t have to pay. I still have $3000 in ER bills to pay.

All I can think is I DID request assistance for mental health and loneliness. Because I am incredibly lonely.

This is just unexpected. And a relief.

I got a letter from my insurance company stating that I qualify for financial assistance and that my current bills, including the ER trips, have been covered at 100%.

I didn’t apply for this. I’ve been struggling to pay for those trips, for the concussion & then for the hypertensive crisis I had.

Happy Friday! Thanks to y'alls help, we're just $758 shy of covering November bills. It would be such relief to be secure for this month before the next one is on us. Please keep sharing, it's a big help! Thank you so much!!

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