tissa

this city contains so many vapid status-obsessed socialites

accepting womanhood blew the dam on some things i didn't expect

maybe i should try dating a man

need a mean butch who tops

in the same country

i need more local friends who don't want to fuck me

the air feels frosty and crisp

less than a year later and i actually fucking did it
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feeling relaxed for the first time in a month. it was so worth it

a screwdriver and allen wrench at most

i'm hesitant to open up to people, for fear of becoming their favourite person and having my dm's flooded until i have the energy to initiate "the talk"

i thought i was very direct in saying i didn't want any more closeness in my life. i want more time to myself to hike, read, and eat vaniljbullar

woke up to a drunk text 🙃

spent 10 hours alone cleaning the apartment. unpacking everything. and loading the remainder into storage

am i qualified to call myself a proper butch now?

i feel stronger than i've ever felt

seeing the end of the road on the horizon in terms of preparation

too many people want me to be very present in their lives atm, and it's overwhelming

my current focus is on:
- educating myself on marxist, critical and gender theory
- finding ways to apply myself in community with others
- learning basic practical/DIY skills
- continueing to improve how i dress
- learning cooking fundementals, buying better tools, and learning more recipes

in my head, this is grouped with other steps i've taken towards becoming more reliable well-rounded person over the past year. i want to continue that project. this is a time in my life for maturing a bit more

i'm two books into this effort but kind of hit a slump recently due to major life shifts. though i did become close with someone who motivates me and enjoys talking about this

while my politics are broadly oriented in the right direction, i feel the need to educate myself. my understanding of the things i believe in is too thin and hollow

shut up freyja, finish your unholy béarnaise banana monstrosity

swedes will treat dutch people like their little dancing monkey. who must recite "wij hebben een serieus probleem" and "geef me een klap papa" ad nauseam for entertainment

i should pick up some butler

thinking of adding "woman" as a descriptive label for my lived experience and the political category i occupy. in addition to "non-binary", to convey my internal sense of identity

non-binary woman

feel like a walking husk

the body i inhabit. the art i get to contribute to. where i find myself. the people whose company i share. they are all things i intentionally fought very hard to get the opportunity to enjoy today. i'm grateful it's coming together now

i'm glad i had the courage to make myself uncomfortable

there comes a point in every relationship where you have to disclose your past life as a weezer fan

being embraced so hard i'm suffocating